[Mr.Arch-Vile]

The topic I am trying to figure out is, what is normal? Now I feel dumb for posting this almost like I shouldn't at all, but I just want to get it off my chest; I want to get some interaction on the subject before I start bringing this up with my doctor.

Where I'm coming from with this question is that everything we see and interact in this world is calculated to some unit of measure that is held to some standard. Example:You drive your car over a calculated and engineered bridge. Everything is calculated, weighed and measured. Our realities are objective and tangible to ourselves but the experience of our realities is subjective from our observations.

When it comes to this topic of "What is normal?" I find myself stuck in this episode triggering loop (not so much a trigger now due to meds) that I am abnormal trying to become normal. What makes it so psychotic for me is there is no unit of measure for normal, or another way of putting it no standard of being normal.

An example today I feel 10 out of 10, 10 out of 10 of what? good? How do you hold a feeling of good or measure a feeling of good? To what standard is good held up to, and to what worth are they held to and to whom. What is the point of feeling good?

If you are to say that it up to we ourselves to define what is normal. To what good could you hold it up to? To what standard can/do you hold normal to?

Now before I get into the final bit here to round the corner into the mechanics of my episode, I do have defined terms to what is normal. What I'm trying to do is get a reading off the forums on this subject.


So the last, even more triggering to me is this one,

Okay, if your normal, is not my normal.
Then you are my abnormal, but then to who's normal are you normal to?
If you are abnormal to my normal how do we get along with one another?
Do I place value to your abnormal? What decides the value? After that what decides that value, and then what decides that value, and then what decides that value...etc.etc.

Don't be alarmed I'm not having an episode right now. I just feel like I had an break through in expressing my issue.