What is wrong with me? :(

was diagnosed with anxiety back in 2012 when I was 17 ( I'm 21 now) .. ever since then I've been having horrible intrusive thoughts, of things that I would never EVER do in my life. ..(and other anxiety symptoms) but with time they became less & less because I knew they were just intrusive thoughts and nothing more then that, So they wouldn't bother me as much as they did at first. I also always had a BIG fear that I was going crazy back then, but I got over thinking that I was going crazy and that it was just my anxiety making me feel like that...

So the reason I'm writing this post is that .. about 3 weeks ago something weird happened to me.. after finishing watching a show with my husband I had a really weird thought come to my mind which was that I imagined myself as one of the characters in the show ( maybe because I was thinking about them? ) not sure why but...that night I TOTALLY freaked out because it was a random thought or "imagination" that was .. let's say involuntary and something I don't remember ever doing before... so I burst out crying because the thoughts that I'm going crazy started again and this time even worst

Ever since that thought I can't stop thinking about it and the worst thing is that now everytime I watch tv I feel like I'll start imagining myself as some characters & sometimes I actually do it, beause I try not to think about it and as soon I tell myself not to do it, I do it no matter how hard I try not to ... and by that I mean I'll imagine myself like having their looks and facial expressions.. which gets me REALLY scared and all I could do is cry.

I have two wonderful kids and a husband that loves me dearly. I love my life and there's nothing else I would ever want, then to always be with them and be the best mother and wife I could ever be..so it breaks my heart even thinking that I might be going crazy and that I will end up in a crazy house or something :'(

I've been searching up and down the internet for something like what I'm experiencing but I don't find exactly what I'm looking for, which makes me feel even more crazy. It's gotten to the point where I don't know what to do and feel uneasy . At first I thought it's OCD but I don't really know, maybe I'm thinking too much about it?

What can this be? & how can I stop having these disturbing thoughts or whatever it is? .. Please help

Please any comments

Doesn't sound like going crazy to me. Sounds like your anxiety has picked back up. If what you were going thru was a part of going crazy you would find all sorts of info about it on the internet. It's "just" intrusive thoughts. I put just in quotes because I know it is quite disturbing, but you indicated that you have dealt with them before. Wouldn't hurt to find a therapist. Also, you might want to check with your doctor. Hormones can cause anxiety symptoms to flare up along with other things.

GAD can turn into Panic Disorder etc. Check with your Psych Dr.

Thanks for the replies, I really appreciate it... these thoughts are still getting the best of me I guess I really am too much of a worrier.. but going to go see a therapist on thursday finally.