[themindless42]

Hey guys, this is my first post so here goes,

My mind is completely blank every second of the day. There are never any thoughts in my head. It is always empty. And even if I desperately try to think, I am unable to generate thought. I can’t picture or visualize anything in my head either. It is just darkness. I can’t focus on literally anything even entertainment: from YouTube videos to movies to video games to reading, nothing. Additionally I have almost no functional long or short term memory.
Whatever this is has destroyed my life.

I can’t function at all, I can’t keep a job, I had to drop out of school do to my poor academic performance, and I don’t have any friends: I just live in perpetual sickening empty agony. I’m in my twenties and for the past several years I have been living at home with my parents and barely existing.

Anyone else experience anything similar to this?

[Ht32]

I have the same thing plus my memory is really bad too it's almost like being reduced to nothing. I am not sure if it's the meds or what, but it's not fun.

[themindless42]

How long have you been dealing with this?

[Ht32]

Originally Posted by themindless42

How long have you been dealing with this?

Probably since I was 25 I am 32 currently it just got progressively worse. I have had a few seizures so memory loss might be due to that. When I exersize my memory seems to be a lot clearer. The meds make me feel Sudated and cause memory loss it's like being in a fog. I have had a lot of traumatic events in a short amount of time.. Which may have triggered it, I am thinking memory loss is a sort of protection to prevent major overload of stress on the brain. But it's pretty miserable having no direction that's how I feel. Hopefully something changes soon ...😔

[themindless42]

Well I certainly hope something does change for the better