[KayWable]

I'll keep this brief. I feel like I have no direction in life at 33 years old. No friends, no job, no social life. Been trying to find employment with no luck. I've tried socializing with people with no luck. This is starting to depress me. SSI isn't enough to pay all of my credit cards plus utilities and rent (I live in NYC). Thinking a change of environment might do me some good, but not sure which states have cities where I can at least take a taxi if buses are stopped for the night. I'm thinking it might help me.

Feeling like I have no purpose in life is depressing. It has been since I was in grade school. Not knowing myself completely (knowing my likes and dislikes, but not enough to know what career to take or what will make me truly happy). Tried talking to professional doctors about this, but they all start acting as if I am malingering or something. They put up walls and become aggressive in a manipulating controlling way instead of guiding me to a solution. It would be nice to at least make me feel heard and then suggest ways for me to find a way to live comfortably.

I feel doomed in life. In the end I might just end up homeless and sick with illness alone until I die. It is looking real at this moment because I don't have many options for gaining employment due to mental and physical illness. Social Security keeps threatening to discontinue my benefits on the belief that I am able bodied enough to find and hold down a job. Employers not giving me a chance should be evidence enough that I am unable to work obviously.

Anyone have any suggestions on a nice mellow place to live, with decent transportation (7am-9pm bus schedule) and taxi service for after hours when I may need to go somewhere? I was born and raised in NYC, but I am convinced that the environment isn't good for me. When I was married I used to live in 2 other states and I enjoyed the quiet peace very much. (the only downfall was homesick for my family who all live in NYC).

Sorry for the long post. Just needed to vent a little about my pain to people who might understand me.

[emwell]

I can't help with the city/move stuff but...............
Have you ever made an honest attempt at Mindfulness Practice?
You might find your answers.

just a thought that popped in my head while reading this.

[Hairball]

I have found this sight quite useful. City-Data.com - Stats about all US cities - real estate, relocation info, crime, house prices, cost of living, races, home value estimator, recent sales, income, photos, schools, maps, weather, neighborhoods, and more

[Ceara1010]

I know how you feel and have felt the same way.

I don't know if it's any help to hear, but from talking to middle aged people and seniors, most all say that it's the rare person who finds out what it is "I'm supposed to be doing with my life." My father is 83 and after having a very successful career and a lifetime of interesting hobbies (which he still engages in) he's now retired and still says he has no idea what he's wants to be when he "grows up."

George Bernard Shaw said: "You don't find yourself, you create yourself."
Here's a link to an interesting article on this topic. The article stresses the importance of trying new things to achieve this--kind of like you're thinking of moving to a new city.

--Ceara1010