[black-roses]

The truth is people will always understand things from there own perspective so I think of it this way if someone doesn't understand what I am saying and take it in an angry tone its less about me being different and more about how they see there own reality etc. I used to always think that I was different but it was never that I was different or said things in ways people didn't understand its just they were always going to understand it in a way that makes sense to them. Now when I consider that I feel less like a weirdo and that I am different I just realize there are so many different ways to understand something. It's less about me being weird it's more about them. I guess that makes me feel like maybe I will be able to talk to many types of people. It's just all the way of growing up I truly felt misunderstood I always felt like people took all I said in the wrong context I still feel that way and it has caused me a lot of pain feeling like I am unable to communicate in a way people understand it made me feel worthless because I couldn't even get others to understand me. It made me want to be alone and I still want to be alone because nobody truly understands me and I wondered what the **** it would take for people to actually listen to what I am saying and not put there own spin on things. I felt angry for years because they laughed at what I said but they were the ones putting that spin in everything I said. It made me believe that when others laughed they were laughing at how I thought, how I communicated not that they didn't know how to process and understand what I am saying. It has made me feel very insecure in friendships has made me lie about who I am I felt like I didn't know how to show who I was because it always seemed like people misunderstood it. I was painful it was so emptying I don't want to feel empty anymore I don't want to be misunderstood anymore I just want people to stop laughing putting there spin on what I am saying and actually listen to what I am saying you might actually learn something.

Question, what is your body language facial expression when talking? Do you smile? Do you seem friendly and approachable?

That can make a difference in how you are being interpreted.

[mememan]

you are different to other people and probably are weird,but that doesnt make any of it derogatory to you,i mean sure you're different but thats not inherently bad is it

[black-roses]

Originally Posted by ValentinaVVV

Question, what is your body language facial expression when talking? Do you smile? Do you seem friendly and approachable?

That can make a difference in how you are being interpreted.

Well when I speak I always have a serious expression I rarely smile I only smile and become warm friendly and approachable once I trust you not before and trust is something that heavily depends on how I think a person behaves. Like I tend to lack trust for boys my age but then I get along with my cousins that are 14 really easily and well. I guess I get along with them because they are calm and simple if guys aren't calm or simple I tend to get anxious and afraid and tend to not trust them.