[Greenleaves]

Do people like me here?

I'm kind of self absorbed, but I'm working on it. Change takes lots of time and therapy.

I'm working on it.

[Greenleaves]

I know I have a lot of problems. I talk about myself too much. I don't support others as often as other people.

I'm sorry.

Even starting this thread is selfish because it's all about me.

I don't know how to be a better person.

[Greenleaves]

I'm guessing this post of mine is seen as manipulative because it wants people to say Yes I am your friend, and yes you are supportive?

I'm sorry. I don't mean to be manipulative.

[Greenleaves]

I just really don't know what to do. I'm just not good enough. I'm sorry. I don't know what the rules are. I really don't.



Now I'm crying again.

[MotherSuperior]

Hi Greenleaves,

I'm rather new here myself, so I can't really say that I know you well. I can tell from your few posts here that you seem a good person and that you question if you're doing the right thing. I often question if I did the right thing; I only differ from you in that I don't much care if people like me or not. But I hope you find some friends here. Drop me a line any time you feel like it.

Regards,
MS

[Greenleaves]

People don't remember when I've been supportive. They only remember when I'm feeling upset.

I don't get enough reward for being supportive maybe. I dunno. I hate this. All I know is I'm upset.

I don't know what to do.

[Greenleaves]

Thanks for replying Mother Superior.

I do care a lot about whether people like me or not. I think I'm a good person. I just have problems and I don't express myself very well.

[Greenleaves]

My worse fears come true?



I just want to know I have friends here. I'm so sad.

[silentlyscreaming]

((((((((((greenleaves))))))))))
I'm sorry you are feeling so down.
I'm sure that all of your contributions have been helpful.
I can understand why your feeling like you don't know where you "stand" I feel like because I haven't been here since the stone age that my posts and opinions don't count.
It doesn't seem to matter that I'm opening up about my experinces or that I'm trying to be supportive to as many as I can, (40 posts in less than a week) what matters is that I haven't reached a high enough 'status' yet.
I think I'm just gonna shut up and suffer in silence....again.
Sorry, I've turned this around to be about me. Forgive me.

[Greenleaves]

I'm so sad. Am I posting in the wrong forum? I just want people to like me.

So many views on my thread, but only one response.

[Greenleaves]

Happy Birthday Silently Screaming. Thanks for your reply. I don't mind you talking about yourself in my thread.

[Greenleaves]

Someone told me when I feel bad I can try helping others out the way I want to be helped. I'm going to try that now. Be right back

[silentlyscreaming]

I'm doing the exact same thing greenleaves. LOL.

[allthegirls6]

Im your friend greenie! I just cant help but like you

[Greenleaves]

Thanks ATG

(((((ATG))))))

Responding to other's posts is actually helping a bit. It makes me think of something else.

[allthegirls6]

Im glad its helping you.

[Greenleaves]

It's really late. I'm still upset.

I don't know what the "rules" are, the unspoken rules. Maybe I will never fit in here.

I think maybe I'm just going to be myself and people can either be OK with that or ignore me.

If people upset me I will ignore them.

[Greenleaves]

I'm a good person. I know I'm a good person. I have faults just like any other person. I'm not going to let someone make me think I'm not a good person.

tears

I'm a good person.

I hate feeling this. I'm so sad.

Maybe I'm misinterpreting things. I dunno. I just feel upset.

[meander]

I like you Greenleaves, and I remember reading some of your support posts for other people and thinking that you had it exactly right. I'd like to be your friend, if you want me to be :-)

[Irine]

hey listen..EVERYONE is somewhat selfish! do me a favour! i don`t remember if ti was Socrates or Aristo who said that it`s the human nature to think first of all about yourself-and tell me WHAT`S wrong with it?

seriously! if you throw away all that you have been taught for a second and clean your mind of all the society judgmental stuff-do you HAVE to feel "selfish" and "in need to be a better person?"

as long as you casue NO harm to anybody else why would it be really selfish?
just something to think about.

i understand how you may feel. maybe some insecurity...but it`s all about being more time around and getting used to things.

i would sugest that you try not to take things too personally - becasue this is the internet and ANYHTING can be posted here.

but one good thing- you know that whatever it is-it has only as much meaning-only as much power over you as you LET it have! it`s all in your mind, it`s all in your head and you can make the choice!

cheers
"LadyMCB"

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( Greeny )))))))))))))))))

I like you!!

[pachyderm]

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I'm so sad. Am I posting in the wrong forum? I just want people to like me.

So many views on my thread, but only one response.

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Hi! First time I've seen you post here. I like your name too!

[DocClyde]

(((Greenleaves)))

It's a big site, my friend.

[DePressMe]

Hey Greenleaves...I am sorry you are upset. Is there anything I can do to help you? Please PM me if you want to chat. I am sorry I did not respond to this earlier...I wish I could have been there for you when you were upset. Well, I hope your day is getting better.

And, of course I consider you a friend.

[Greenleaves]

Thanks everyone. I feel better right now at this moment. I have to organize and clean my room.