Amnesia

I'm pretty sure I have amnesia...because I fit the symptoms. Possibly psychogenic amnesia, unless its caused by medications. I noticed these memory issues started early in 2011 when I came home from Texas after my psychotic break. I'm literally missing chunks and chunks of the past 6 years, and can't remember anything I learned in college. So I have this completely useless degree, I don't know anything about Sociology. I have trouble remembering faces and learning new information. I'm constantly forgetting appointments and important dates. My memory has been tested by a professional and found impaired but no one really knows why. So it could be meds, or it could have been a trauma I'm blocking out. I have no idea. But its a struggle to live with. There's so much about my past I don't remember, its hard to know who I am. Some days I don't really recognize my face, or in pictures. I'm like...I know its me...but it doesn't look like me. Who am I? I'm constantly having to redefine who I am, because even though I remember a bit more about prior to 2011, there's still so much I don't remember at all. Like I don't remember my 16th, 18th or 21st birthday. I don't remember last Christmas.

My memory comes in serious fragments. My childhood has huge gaps as well, but I was abused and had traumas then, so it doesn't surprise me I'd forget most of it.

Point is...doesn't look like my memory issues are going away any time soon. Its been 6 years since they really started. Despite this, I'm going to attempt grad school. There's got to be ways to memorize information.

Hello vintageexsoul: I'm sorry you are having these memory issues. But your determination to forge ahead with grad school is to be celebrated!

I'm not entirely sure I'll be able to do it....just trying to get through every day. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist tomorrow. See what he says. I told the last one about my memory issues and he just told me I was too young. I've had EEG's and MRI's and there isn't a tumor. So I guess it has to be the medications or past trauma. I don't know.