Apathy towards others.

Upon revisiting this forum I remembered why I left in the first place, and I'm going to try to actually stick around this time.

I am very apathetic towards others. To the point that I can barely read through an entire post even if it's only a few lines. (Regardless of the topic, not just stuff about personal problems)

I'm inclined to say that I want to care because I know I should, but I can't even get that far with it.

I talk to people way more than I used to because I am less paranoid, but only if I'm bored and trying to play with them. That's all it ever boils down to.

Sometimes I think I'm interested in someone but realize I'm only interested in their reactions to whatever I'm saying, and then it becomes a game to see if I can pull certain reactions out of them.

I'm not a sociopath, I'm just bored. And I'm starting to think apathy isn't even the word for it, I care about their benefit to me and I care about how they act towards me, I just don't care about them as people.

I'll also add that what I do care about, I care passionately for.
There are two people in this world so far that fit that category.

Is anyone else like this? I'm feeling kind of weird about it.

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Hello maxim: I don't have any particular comments with regard to your post. But I saw no one had yet replied. So I thought I would just leave a note saying (back...?) to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.