Why do I hate being happy?

Hi. I find myself posting on here, and forums in general, a lot. I'm just still so. Confused I guess. I don't know if anyone does the same thing or can relate to my question but. It seems like I just dislike being happy/feeling normal. It's like I take comfort in sadness more than happiness. Then I try to dig out something that's wrong with me or I want something to be wrong with me. Which overall makes me unhappy all the time.
Maybe the only real problem I have is low self esteem and there's nothing wrong with me- maybe I'm just a normal 16 y/o w/ weird hormones. I get told that a lot. I wish I was normal and I wish I didn't hate living so much man. It seems like I never have anything to look forward to ya know.
But I don't want this turn into a ramble. What do you think.

I feel the same way I'm sorry.. I don't know the answer, either

Do you have a reason to feel guilty about being happy or stable?

I don't know. I don't feel like I have a legit reason to do it -to feel guilty about my happiness- but I kinda just. Do.
Sorry if that doesn't help, I'm confused about it myself

Um, do you have a low self-worth perhaps? If this is so my guess then is that you don't feel worthy of being happy? Does feeling guilty for not feeling guilty ring a bell?

If you're a normal 16-year-old with hormones that are weird enough to cause this, there's something wrong.

By analogy, suppose your vision was blurry all the time. You don't have anything circumstantial issues making your vision blurry, for example, none of that gunk that is sometimes produced by eyes (eye boogers, whatever it's called). Are you a normal 16-year-old with weird eyes? The answer could be yes! But you should still go to an eye doctor!!! Because you have weird eyes!!!

Hormones are just one biological function that can mess up your emotions. Many of the others aren't well-understood, so getting your hormone levels checked is a good start. Even if it turns out your hormones are normal, that rules out one cause of the problem.

@justafriend I did mention that I have self esteem issues and it could be it
and to answer you, I do have a hormonal issue (PCOS) which can affect my emotions. I was dignosed with it in 2015.

(Sorry, I re-read that portion I missed. Whoops)

yes, poor self-esteem does to me seem the heart of this matter. It causes you to feel you don't deserve happiness which in turn contributes to a depression which in turn impacts your self worth and so the cycle continues. It is hard to remove a piece of this circle but I think working on your self-esteem is the answer.

It seems to me you find comfort in unhappiness because it is what is referred to as a known factor. Making efforts to find/achieve happiness is a risk. It is an 'unknown factor' which can be scary to put yourself out there for. I recommend baby steps in that instead of jumping into the pool, take small steps from the edge by keeping the look out for opportunities. Eventually I think you will find ways to make those opportunities to happen.

Just my thoughts.

Behaviour therapy like CBT or DBT are ways of increasing your self-worth. It teaches techniques to challenge negative automatic thoughts and helps you learn to replace them with those that are more positive. I have taken this form of therapy and it did wonders. I am now revisiting it with a CBT Journal.

I borrow from the therapy when I ask : what is the advantage for you to think this way?