[Polex]

Ok,what got me here,and hit me to register and post right now is that,ive been chatting with some girl,and she likes me,i like her,but she on a playing side and even tho she likes me that attention is not kind a pointed to me,and I get thinking maybe I said this wrong,maybe I said that wrong,and she just dont care lol!Ok now the whole situation with girl is nothing,one person is always more into than the other.Thing is,I spend too much time thinking about this,we didnt talk for so long time,maybe I didnt like it somewhere,but it was ok,she wrote me couple days ago and I was happy about it and stuff,but she just makes me feel bad,I dont know,why I have to sit 2 hours and think about this stuff? Like really,this was just the stuff happened today,at all at my life,its like I try to depend on something,theres a girl,so I start to think about her,and relate on future with her,when its just chatting,which is absurd,but you get mixed up when person shows you warm feelings too,but shes young so you know what you can expect,duh.I lived my life without parents,I have mom but she had to live eslewhere for most of my life,and im man without father,im trying to do best becoming a strong person,but life is not easy doing everything alone,all the **** you have to go thru.So whats happening now in my head,im guessing im trying to drop my brain on the girl too heavy,why I cannot be like normal selfish person? Dont care about anything,girls do like me,im gentle and good,not a ***** type too tho,but all that goodness is damaging myself badly,im turning 30 soon,and I havent sorted this crap.I dont know,at the end I think I got to retarded question which may sound like retarded,but should I just start fooking every single girl I can get in my bed to become selfish and degrade women in my eyes as item to satisfy my pleasure.I know I would be 300 more times succesfull lol,I did have a GF for a long time,but I was mega not happy,it was bumpy start,wasnt worth to waste so much time imo,now im chatting that with that,and instead of thinking about money im all moody,HOW TO SEPERATE AT ALL EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AND JUST TO FOCUS ON MONEY?Please somebody tell me.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Polex: I'm sorry I don't think I really know the answer to your dilemma. You mentioned you grew up, for the most part without a mother & without a father. So I presume you perhaps have some attachment issues. Perhaps that's what's going on here.

But whatever it is, the answer, to my mind, is to delve into all of this, over a period of time, with the help of a counselor or mental health therapist. Trying to resolve your mental health struggles by trying to go to bed with as many women as you can entice (if this is what you're considering) is not only not going to resolve what you are struggling with; but is likely to just make matters even more complicated over time.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

[RainyDay107]

Are you able to create paragraphs? It's very hard to read a wall of text. xo