[Erecura]

I really might have a serious issue, but I'm not sure about what's actually going on. I get paranoid and delusional thoughts which I know are not normal or real, but for some reason I cannot get them out of my mind. Even though when I tell my own self zillion times, that it's a total ******** and I can't even think this way, I can't make these thoughts dissappear and they bother me until the point when I feel like I going crazy. I know I can't share these thoughts with anyone and I know it's totally mad and I fear of being really sick which only causes more and more anxiety and compulsive thoughts. Am I really insane or is it just a part of anxiety? Pls help!

Well anxiety will certainly have something to do with it. Sounds as though you may be getting yourself so worked up that the problem has ended up being worse than it started out.

If you are in fact having paranoia and delusions you need to find someone to help you - your doctor, your psychiatrist, the emergency room are all a start. I can understand being hesitant to do so but these people (should) treat you compassionately. What it really comes down to it is do you want to try and ignore the situation or help yourself.

You have not given us much detail - which is great if you don't want to. It is difficult though to judge the extent of what is troubling you. Regardless though of how extreme these thoughts are that concern you I still encourage you to talk to one of the above to sort it out.

Hello Erecura,

It sounds more like anxiety to me, because deep down you know that these thoughts are not logical. With delusions you are 100% convinced that the delusion is real. Anxiety can definitely mimic psychosis though...I've had experience with both so I'll post a couple of personal examples:

ANXIETY - I used to get intrusive thoughts that I would kill others. Although I knew, deep down, that it wasn't in me to do it, my anxiety fueled the intrusive thought and made it a much bigger deal than it was. These thoughts led to my first 4 hospitalizations - anxiety is no joke!

PSYCHOSIS - During a manic episode, I thought I was God's chosen one and that I had to end my life to join Him in heaven. I was absolutely convinced of it despite nobody else believing me.

Similar, but the key difference is in anxiety you are not 100% convinced. Both can be very hard to endure though, and I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling.