[MelonSoda]

So..it's been a couple months(started around march, which is when I started restricting food Intake. This might be the reason but I have had episodes before I started restricting, but they have recently started up again and are worse) since I've been getting really bad anger mood swings out of nowhere. Anything can trigger it. Mostly I'll get mad at myself for something really stupid and simple things. But I'd yell at myself, hit and cry. And it's like this voice in my head that is just screaming at me and I'll swear at myself under my breath, but it's not me...but after these episode are done I'm extremely sad, suicidal even if it's really bad...I get so upset that I usually can leave my bed the next day or finish any of my school work...like all my energy is sucked out of me...
I don't know how to deal with this other "personality." (I guess that's what'll I'll call it.)
I'm too scared to tell my parents or go to a doctor, I'm afraid of medication honestly and therapy..scared it'll make everything worse...
If someone is/has gone through this or knows what going on, id really appreciate the help.
Thank you.

[Sunflower123]

I don't have any idea what's going on. I hope other posters do. I encourage you to tell your parents and to see a pdoc. This could be serious and your condition could deteriorate. Best wishes.

I'm really sorry you've been feeling so badly, MelonSoda. Why are you scared of getting help? Why do you think it will make it worse? What if getting help made you feel better? I second what Jennifer said.

[Victoria'smom]

I have that I call it ANA. It's due to an eating disorder. The only thing that helps is an anti psychotic and consistently telling it no x, y, and z aren't true as soon as it's said.

I'm not sure what you mean by food restricting. Not getting sufficient nutrition will affect your brain health - "starve the body starve the mind" and all that.

You have mentioned being fearful of psychiatric help; doctors, medications, therapy. Here is some food for thought.... You have nothing to lose if you don't try. Try these out before making up your mind about them being negative.