[wwwcitricacid]

Just woke up this morning, haha. It feels good to type things down or write things down when things seem scary or weird. But it helps, it always helped just have to be sure not to read my own scribblings in he future because its like "I can't believe I just typed this in!"... Feelings of shame often take over, but that's not important.

I hate how my threads are completely different to one another, it makes them hard to make sense to me because of this.

A lot of us go on this website to type things down a little like a call for help when we feel like we can't tell anyone else or when we just need the reply, because it feels good and it helps weirdly enough. I am one of those people, which is why I am here.

I am scared again and I don't know what to do. My day to day life is like this, I walk to work but I often have to make way for cars (I live in the UK so the roads are narrow, also buildings are quite small. Not much space.), at work I always have to move out of peoples way because everyone is speeding around working, at home the dog barks and the doors creak and I just cannot escape.
Its not bad, but all of those little things really annoy me because and its stressful because all of those little things pile up and it becomes a huge stress, especially when there are people around me. Always have to worry about my blood sugar because Diabetes, all of the stress does not go away so easily anymore it stays and I've been spending more and more time alone because of it.

For the last week even sleeping is getting stressful, when I get into a half-sleep I can hear a dog which gets me out of the half-sleep but sometimes its a whistle. This morning I woke up because I dreamed about the dog licking my lips, woke up my lips felt very wet and I kept my eyes closed because I could hear the dog running around my room and I could feel the dog walking on me but when I opened my eyes its gone but when I close my eyes again it comes back. My bedroom door is closed. And the keyboard feels and sounds like paper.

I don't know, don't want to face the world at the moment just want to stay in my room, hopefully the dog won't bother me now that I am fully awake.

That is all, thank you for reading.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having a tough time. When you try to sleep at night you could use a fan for white noise or use ear plugs if that would help your sleep. I don't have any advice for your travel to work. Maybe a good night sleep will help. Best wishes.

[shezbut]

((((hugs))))

I use a white noise sound machine to help (as well as a fan 24/7), it can be very helpful to me. Keeping the room cool also helps, so I'm not peeling covers and sheets off in the night.

Gentle hugs sent your way.

[*Laurie*]

I'm so sorry you're feeling down. I hope today was better. The fan while sleeping is a great idea, and ear plugs are very helpful.

[wwwcitricacid]

The fan is a good idea, might even buy a cheap one online because there is something strangely soothing about the sound of the fan- plus, it keeps you cool

And getting more sleep is an obvious solution, have not been getting enough sleep so maybe getting a bit more will make handling with stress a bit easier.

Cheers guys

I feel like I go through this occasionally. To me, it's kind of like everything startles or unsettles me much more than what I consider "normal".

It's very annoying when I go through these short periods of uncalm....

[Fuzzybear]