[nadia533]

Hi, I'm Nadia and this is my first post.
At the end of the school year, I went through something... So, my friend had a party with most of the girls in the grade and had my friends lie to me and literally gave each of them an alibi so if I asked what they were doing that weekend then they had an excuse and could cover for her so I wouldn't find out. Well, I found out. I was extremely upset and depressed and she tried to make me feel better by explaining every single thing they did on this weekend trip to a nice beach... Which made me even more upset. I also had a bunch of other people lie to me that weekend so I was already depressed when I found out. Her reasoning to not invite me was because she thought I would throw myself off a cliff when on a hike there. Like seriously????????
I overreacted and told some of my friends the next day at school that I wished I could harm her physically and stuff. Violent, I know. I hang out with guys so I'm used to violence and stuff so... whoops... But she and my friend Amelia found out and instead of asking me to stop or even approaching me about it, she went straight to the principal. I was an emotional WRECK! That messed me up so much! The principal said he'd tell my parents!! Yet he failed to mention the fact that I was suspended for a day! My parents told me when I got home and I was so immensely depressed. I had never felt so awful in my life and I have gone through a lot of ****. When suspended, I texted her and asked how she could do that to me. She showed no indication that she was upset with my texts or that she wanted me to stop texting her, yet she went to the principal (AGAIN) saying I was cyberbullying. This was the girl who I used to tell EVERYTHING to. It all happened so fast.

Now it has been over a month. I haven't talked to her since and I can't even look at her. Hearing her name is enough to cause me to flashback. And when I say flashback, I mean I relive it. I am there again. I can remember everything she said. I hear her voice in my head. I avoid ANYTHING that reminds me of her. Especially the places me and her went to together. I don't let my friends even say her name around me because it's just too much. I still cry a lot over it and I see her in my sleep now. Because of her, I don't trust anyone anymore.

Is this trauma? Can that be considered a traumatic event? I really don't know what it is. I do know that it is not normal but no one will take it seriously.

--Nadia

[Sunflower123]

Yes, you've been through a traumatic event. Do you have a therapist to help you work through this? I wish you the very best and hope you feel better soon.

[MickeyCheeky]

Even if it's not trauma, it seems like you're going through a lot.. so my advice is therapy, as well. I'm so sorry you were treated this way..

[nadia533]

It's just that I literally am going through all the symptoms of PTSD, but, I know this was not nearly severe enough to be PTSD. And I am going to therapy. She doesn't get the severity though.