[Wila]

I am so out of hope. Since er yesterday I'm on valium 3times a day and only have a slight anxiety. But my non-safe thouhgts are getting worse and I feel so sad all the time. I really need to pull myself together until tomorrow afternoon when I have a new doctors appointment.

My husband know about everything exept that thouhgts are getting worse. I feel like I'm failing him and the kids with existing.

[MickeyCheeky]

You are NOT failing your family, quite the opposite: you're showing your strength becaure you're still standing. Be proud of yourself.

I'm sorry you're struggling.. please try to hang on at least until tomorrow. And if you can, please tell your husband. Just having someone who listens can help. Big hugs, let us know how it goes

[Sunflower123]

I agree wholeheartedly with Mickey. I hope your appointment tomorrow goes well and you get some relief. Thinking of you.

[Wila]

Thanks! Right now everything seems hopeless but I try to hope that tomorrow is going to be a better day.

[Wila]

I feel so numb but yet so very sad. Right now I can't see any meening in anything. I wish I could be put to sleep for a while and then wake up without MI

[Guiness187055]

Your not failing. We have all been in shoes. Hang in there it gets better.

[Unrigged64072835]

You're not failing. You are very strong and courageous because you're seeking help. It's not a sign of weakness. You care about yourself and your family.

[Wila]

I'm so scared for my doctors appointment today. I think he might admit me to the psych ward and I hate beeing locked up. But I don't feel safe at home with my thouhgts either. Why can't life be more simple?

[MickeyCheeky]

People get committed only in extreme cases (extremely suicidal people, for example). If you don't go to that extent, I don't think you'll be locked up. If you do feel that bad, though, I think being committed might be the safest option for you.. be strong, you can do this.

[Wila]

I've been admitted three times before and I feel the same as then. That's why I think that will happen. I'm not in such bad shape they'll force me but I won't refuse if they think it's the best option.

[Wila]

I was right. Met the first doc who admitted me and now I'm waiting to be seen at psych ward. F*** but still I do this without beeing force.

[Sunflower123]

I'm glad you're getting the help you need.

[Wila]

I'm still at the psych ward and getting my medication changed. It feels like I'm a walking pharmacy with everything they give me. I hate this and yet I'm here by my own choice.

I wish there were a quick fix for MH issues.