just a note of update

Sorry you're having problems the last few days, but I'm glad you made it safely to Kentucky.

Thank you all for your support through this adventure.....for sure it was & still is an adventure.
The night at the hotel with a nice hot shower was just what I needed...wish it had been home, but at least there was hot water & a bed. I don't have the bed set up yet....it is all in boxes (the sleep # bed comes that way)....plus, I don't have the master bedroom in a shape enough to set in up in anyway, so it's back to the reclining deck chair that I was sleeping in the last 2 1/2 months I was here.

The person who installed my windows was great....he came over Tuesday morning & got the water heater going. I was doing it correctly, but guess I just didn't give it long enough to light....guess I was a bit nervous being alone in the basement, not knowing that much about the propane & trying to light the pilot light witout blowing anything up. I even had the valves turned right so the gas should have been coming through. I didn't smell the gas, so that was why I thought it had been shut off somewhere else.

He had the crew that works for him there & they unloaded my truck in less than 1 hour....the truck that took 9 days to load....lol. Everyting is dumped into the garage because there isn't any place in the house that is ready for boxes.....the dust from sanding the drywall & dust from having the windows installed. There is no end of the work that I am going to be doing.

What happened was that I heard the words that the painter had said about cleaning things up & interpreted it into an expectation that definitely wasn't realistic.....that was why the shock was so great upon opening the front door.

After getting the truck unloaded, he also helped me take it back to the rental place in the next town....gave me a ride back home. I hadn't made any specific plans to have any help unloading, but I figured it would all work out....& like usual, it did. It is amazing how things do always seem to work out better than if I would plan them. Sometimes I don't know how or what to plan, so doing nothing is the only thing I can do, & just let everything work out in the end.

I am having the painter finish up what he hasn't finished up...I will be making a list & that will be what is expceted in order for him to receive his final pay.....for what I have already paid him....he owes me anyway. I don't mind when someone does work that isn't what they are hired to do if I ask them to do it while they are doing their main job, but when they start doing things that aren't part of their job because they do it....that doesn't go over well with me at all. Especially when I had already stated what wasn't to be done & they end up doing it anyway. That's when I start showing my determination....of don't mess with me & think you can get away with it.

I know the stress got to me with just stupid little things. When I got to the hotel & took the hair clip out of my hair.....I lost it & never did find it....looking all over the room & through the few cases I had in the room...it never showed up. Then the next morning, I was holding the keys & the auto locking/unlocking thing for my truck & all of a sudden, it wasn't in my hands anymore....& nowhere to be seen. I even drove back to the rental truck place to see if I left it in the truck....not there either. Not on top of the things that were moved & most of everything was already moved. It wasn't on the ground or the lawn. it will show up someday....but that is when I really loose it. I always got upset when I would misplace something or loose it, but it would be ok....after going through the trauma with the home care person & the identity theft where my mothers wedding ring was nowhere to be seen & the checkbook I was looking at disappeared right under my nose....I really can' handle things missing....it actually threw me into a panic attack that I just had to take my med, sit down & relax...sleep awhile & work at calming down....telling myself that it's ok...it will show up....no body took it this time & nothing bad will happen because of it....that was then & this is now....completely different situation. That helped some.

During this move, I have also realized that I have tons of things that have to be done, but there are no dead deadlines to have to deal with & I have the rest of my life to get everything together even though I would like everything done yesterday. With that in mind, I have decided to sit down & take it easy for a few days & do only that which has to be done (paying bills, getting the pool fixed (the swimmy bugs are back along with the green), & just looking around & seeing what is needed to be done. I am letting it churn in the back of my mind & letting the thoughts settle before even starting anything. I find that when I go into a project relaxed, I can do a much better job. I have also realized that when I don't feel like doing something, I don't push myself....there is no reason to because in a day or two, I will get more done by waiting than by trying to push myself when I don't feel like doing something. I used to thing that if I didn't push myself, I wouldn't do the things I have to do, but I have found the other side of me that works well when I am feeling good....it's not like when I was working & there was a contract with deadlines.

I have a strange way of working.....I can work for several days straight while I'm feeling motivated....then I get exhausted & crash for a few days....in the long run, i get the same amount of work done....it just isn't a normal days work....but then I've never been normal....why start now???/

I'm working slowly at getting into the swing of this house & sorting through what has to be done.

The windows that were installed are beautiful....they are the white vinyl & brighten up the outside of the house....the previous windows were gray & so were the shutters...I have the shutters painted the historical green colour for the area. When I first saw the colour, I wasn't sure about it, but with them on the windows, it is absolutely gorgeous....will have to download a picture when I find the digital care reader somewhere in the boxes in the garage.

I have several errands to run today & a few things to accomplish....but one of the most important things is to find my warm cloths....it is getting very cold here & all I have out are my summer cloths left from my previous months here....

as the adventures continue.....or "as the world turns"....lol

Debbie