WTF?!?

Trying to schedule appt with doc right now but please any input in the meantime about what this is and how to control would be very much appreciated. Little bit of background. . . normally I'm not the happiest person. Not exactly depressed but negative, always thinking the worst is going to happen. Lots of anxiety, occasional paranoia, panic attacks, problems with reckless behavior (usually not out of control though). Not medicated (psych or otherwise) and havent done illegal drugs in past five years.
sorry if this is offensive at all but for the past two days or so i feel like i'm high. having donedrugs in the past its the easiest way to decribe this feeling. its like im on drugs without the drugs. i cant sleep, no appetite and im so UP. at first i was enjoying this. i'm usually such a miserable complaining b!tch that it was a nice change. the lack of sleep is getting to me though and the urge to just do everything is burning me out. i dont know if this is symptomatic of anything. maybe this is what normal people feel like. i've been down for so long i dont know what normal is. anyways, really need advice. i know it sounds odd to complain about not being unhappy. i dont know if its the change thats unsettling me or what. thanks for any advice.

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sounds like a manic episode to me....you might take the bipolar quiz on the homepage here and see what it says. It's entirely possible to have been depressed for years and then have a full-blown manic episode -- happened to me!

thank you. took the quiz and scored 39 (moderate, i think). was wondering how you dealt with this and if you needed medication? i really hate being medicated. this is honestly the most bizarre experience i think i've ever had. i feel like im going 100 mph. i actually miss being my usual unhappy self. its really disconcerting. ive spent years complaining about how unhappy i am and i never want to leave the house and i cant do anything and now i can hardly sit still. how long do you think it will last? does anything minimize it? thank you for responding.

You do have a compelling subject line. Sorry I'm not able to offer any advice.

is that meant to be snarky?

No it isn't, sorry. I just meant that your post attracted my attention. I'm changing meds at the moment and feeling .... hard to describe. But I wasn't being snarky.

aww. hmm look up things on wiki or something, could be a manic episode in depression, could be cyclythymia but im not a pdoc so dont ask me
take care
self

I absolutely HATED being manic -- I don't know how people say they enjoy it. I too would take depression any day!

And yes, it did take medication to calm it down. Took a few tries to find one that worked and didn't make me sick or eat like a pig, but I'm reasonably stable now. My episode started right when I moved to a new town for a new job, and I couldn't get into a pdoc for 3 months. I'd say it lasted 4 or 5 months, would have to go back and look at my quiz scores to check. I'm told that untreated, episodes usually last about that long.

Good luck -- let me know if I can help.

Candy

Don't have any advice, but just wanted to say it sounds unpleasant. Hope you can get in to see a dr. soon.

--splitimage