What is wrong with me?

Hey, once again, nothing fits into a certain area and I have no idea about what is wrong with me. Uh, I'm sorry.

Well first of all... I'm confused and feel more aggressive than usual, like everything will set me off or I'll get heavily depressed.
I can't communicate with people, I distanced myself and am keeping zero contact with close friends anymore.
Even my girlfriend realized this and It hurts, everything hurts.
I just want to cry out for help, but I can't, I just can't. It feels like I can't, like it is just an anchor in my soul. It brings me down and now I'm scared to drag anyone down with me.
Lately I feel like I'm missing time, like I just go on auto pilot until I just feel whole again. I swear it feels like I'm watching myself sometimes.
And last night just proved it to myself.

I was okay, like I tried talking then all of a sudden... I felt like I left my body, I felt myself get angry at my friends.. but didn't feel like I was there. I watched myself say things to my friends, I watched myself talk my friend into a deep hole of depression by my words; but I still felt like I wasn't there.
Then I came back? Like I had control over myself again.
And it was too late. I was too late, what said was done and over with.
God I feel like I'm going crazy..

I can't even hold conversations or relationships anymore..

This post is pointless, there's nothing wrong with me.
I'm sorry.

Are you talking to a therapist? You are struggling and sounds like you could use someone to help you feel more in control of yourself. Maybe a family member could help.

I hope things get better for you very soon.

It's not a pointless post, a lot of people here can relate and it's good to let those feelings out. I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now, do you have a therapist or mental health team to talk too? Keep sharing here if it helps.

I agree. A therapist might be a big help in this situation.

I noticed from your previous post that you are in high school. Could you reach out to a school nurse or counselor?

Have you talked to your parents about these feelings? Sometimes parents are not helpful, but you don't know until you try. They may pleasantly surprise you and get you into therapy. Please reach out for help.

Big hug to you. Try not to worry. You just need a bit of help right now.

We don’t diagnose, but there could very well be something “wrong” with your mental health. It’s better to be diagnosed and learn to deal or get past the problem.
There is something up hoshi, you should talk to a professional about it.