havent been posting

i know i havent been posting. just cant do it. but today i realised im so lonely it hurts. thats what the hurting is. and it makes me want to hide away from people and crave people incredibly at the same time.
i woke up this morning and knew that if i didnt have family i am afraid to hurt i would not be continuing to live at the moment.
i cant say anything else.

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I know that feeling well.

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Just last night I said this very thing to my therapist. It is so hard.

I'm glad you're here

(((((((((Biiv))))))))))),

I have been missing you here & have been concerned, wondering how you have been doing since we last talked.

I know you have been going through some very difficult times. I understand the feelings of not wanting to continue living. I have been there many more times that I would care to admit. The important thing to remember is that when we are feeling that way, we have no idea what wonderful things our life really has in store for us in the future.

Yes, I had to go through some even more difficult situations before things settled down. But in the end, life really was worth living. Not saying that there arent always difficult times, but the good now always out weight the bad.

My prayers are with you & want you to know how much I care about you,
Your adopted Mom,
Debbie