[HD7970GHZ]

Hi everyone,

Everyone has things about themselves that they are ashamed about. In learning to love ourselves, we must learn to accept and or live with these things. Anyone have something they are ashamed about that they would like to share?

I am currently trying REALLY hard to accept something about myself. I have a lot of shame about it... Basically I am an ABDL. (Adult Baby Diaper Lover). I have been for as long as I can remember but I've mostly suppressed and repressed my emotions and desires for years.

My therapist said to throw the shame right out the window. Lately I have explored it more and more and I hope that I can eventually rest in being ABDL and not care so much about it.

I recently bought A LOT of diapers; trying different kinds.
I recently bought little stuff like pacifiers, blankies, stuffed animals.
I really just like to build a safe place for myself and be comfortable / nurtured.
I really want a mommy.

I am starting to accept this part of myself, rather than fight it. SO HARD!

Thanks,
HD7970ghz

I'm ashamed that I let people waylay my life's path and career choices to the point now where I"m almost 50 and have no job prospects and am almost out of grad school financial aid so I won't be able to finish my 2nd masters degree.

[Spirit of Trees]

I'm ashamed that unlike my friends, I don't have a job and can't drive.

I'm ashamed that I cry when I'm angry.

[LiteraryLark]

I'm ashamed that I'm so obsessed with my weight that I judge people so harshly on their weight, including my mom.

I've made my mom really upset when I kept pushing her to lose weight.

I'm ashamed that I starve myself and shame myself when I eat food that is unhealthy.

I am ashamed that tell myself that I can't date "in this condition".

I'm ashamed that I can't look at myself and see beauty.

BUT

I am trying very hard to fight those thoughts.

It's not easy.

I'm afraid if I become comfortable with who I am physically, I'll just "let myself go".

But I can't enjoy the food and the drinks I love without obsessing over how that's going to make me look.

Weight and appearance is a huge struggle for me.

I wish I could accept myself for who I am.

[LadyShadow]

I used to be ashamed of my weight, the fact that I have to shave my face like a man, and all the pimples on my face.

Through self-acceptance I have learned to embrace my fat and love myself at 210 pounds.

I used my Care Credit card to get hair laser therapy so I don't have that much growth on my face anymore.

I wash ALL my makeup off and moisturize my skin with Advanced Gold Bond Therapy with Shea and Cocoa Butter.

I get manicures and my eyebrows done so now I love how I look.

What I realized was, it only took a few steps to make me feel better about myself, and if I can do it ANYONE can.

I am ashamed raised two children (now adults) who are still so dependent on me. I see some of the ways I contributed to it. My husband and I am still trying to help them but they are not cooperative. Both my FOO and my husband's FOO tried to help at times but they have now backed off because our children were not able to take advantage of the help when it was offered. They say nothing is wrong with them. I fear that I did not see what was wrong with me or them until it was too late. My family is completely tragic because of this, I sometimes feel guilty about how much more I have had and still have compared to them. Of course, I worked to have what I do have. They do not have jobs and still are not on the right course. I will always try to help them but struggle with how much help is really helpful. They are my children so it causes deep pain and I have to take medications so I can stay logical about what has happened rather than becoming insane from the pain.