[Stuck1nhead]

I'm either in a rut again or I've been in the same rut for the past decade; with brief intermissions of happiness. I say I'm 80% sad, 10% meh, and 10% happy. I just have no dreams of my own, I was never allowed to dream or set my own goals. I've done what I was "suppose" to do my entire life. I've always felt like the black sheep.

I have a pretty easy life; I know I do. Just from hearing my coworkers talk about their life's its obvious my life is less hectic. I guess I just can't cope like most people. I'm a hard worker, but slow to learn. I have completley loss my backbone and avoid confrontation like it's the plague. I take the meds my psychiatrist prescribes, but they don't make me feel happy. I just feel numb and empty inside. Instead of suicidal and hopeless. At least most the time.

I'm just not happy with what I am, but lack the courage to change. I've grown comfortable and lazy. Even though I'm aware of this, I have no desire to put the effort forth to change. Nothing seems to click....

I feel the same way. I feel content with my life as it is, but I feel like it lacks excitement. When excitement happens, it's about bad things more than good. I just basically work and eat; and that's all there is. I exercise, too. I don't spend a whole lot of time doing that.

I tried to do something about it. I had gotten out there to meet people and possibly make friends. All of that didn't work. So I've lost motivation to try again. It seemed like I felt worse at being out there and not making it than if I didn't try at all. On top of that I'm a real homebody.

Sorry to hear you two feel stuck in a rut. I don't have any advice except that I found this Psychology Today article about it. I am also stuck in a rut. I hope the article helps a little.

[pundck]

I have had a period of time like this. I try to think of those periods as 'you must go into the darkness to see the light out'. I might be vague, numb, space-disorienting...but perhaps you are in a rebuilding phase and you are still yet to find the first piece to lay down. Nothing destructive, just a little pause to rebuild something stronger.