today was so so so bad.
i have been so scared all day.

this morning when i woke up i was about to leave for school and my mom said "why was there a knife in your dresser" and i froze. I was like um because i ate dinner up there. Then she said 'well why was it in your drawer." Then my bus came and i had to leave.

I failed my history test today because i just counldnt foccus. I was stairing at it the whole time.

I know whats going to happen when she gets home. Its going to be a repeat of last year. She is going to say im stupid and dumb and tell me she can have me locked up with others like me and that i embaressed her. Thats what she said last year when i said i only did it three times and never would again. She believed me. I am srewed.

hreghjdufwieskdtw

[KathyM]

Is that REALLY how it ended up IN your dresser? If there are people in your life that are making you angry, you'll never be able to get back at them by hurting yourself and sabotaging your future. You'll never get out of their grasp if you set yourself up to lose focus on your studies or path in life. You can't dig yourself out of a hole by making excuses.

I hope it's not too bad today.

[x_BabyG_x]

((((((court knee)))))))

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((court_knee)))))

I want you to know I hear you. I care and I know how you feel. Please keep posting and talking. It is important to keep reaching and let your friends here help you as you walk through this. I really understand hun, and really, you already know that it only helps for the instance, but the problems are still there when the feelings wear off of what you do.

I am here to support you and let you know that I care. And I care enough to tell you that you need to be careful. It is hard but Court_knee, I believe in you. Take care of yourself. Know you are not alone. You can PM me any time you need to and I will listen. I love you and I care.

darkpurplesecrets

[TaintedGoth1]

(((((Court Knee)))))

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( Court )))))))))))))))

[gimmeice]

(((((((((((((((Court_knee)))))))))))))))

[I_WMD]

And Court ,,,>>> You could always say why you have a thing about pain ,, and who may be the real target of your hurt ...

Now re - focus and Ask for a make - up test !!! ... I 'm serious .

YOU ,,, ,,,first .

[I_WMD]

,,,>>>>>>>>.......... 1 more thing .... Billy Idol,,>>>....... [ song ].... W H I T E WEDDING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It 's a Nice day To start again >>. who 's your Superman !!!!

[Typo]

(((Court_Knee)))

[I_WMD]

Nother Songggggggggggggggggggggggggggg....

Country song .

Ya find out who your Friends Are ....
Give the shirt off your back >> need a place to spend there ..

WMD . Never have I known anything but an adopted family ,, But then I learned care >> and took it with me ,,, and all these tears later ,,,,>>>> ....

It does Change daily while we ,,,,,,,,, grow .

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((Court_knee)))))

Thinking of you dear and hoping you have a better day. Know you are loved and cared for. I know how you feel but keep focused. We all have to do that at times to make it. I send you love and good wishes for a good day. I love you much.

darkpurplesecrets

[sujunew]

(((((court)))))
take care. Let your mother know that you are really trying, but it is a hard addiction to quit. That is what I have promised myself I will tell my mother next time she brings it up