[thunderbear]

I'm so sick of this. I want to go somewhere where no one knows me. Just to start over new. I am so sick of the drama from my family my husband this stupid little town. I want so badly to go somewhere else. To get better to be my normal self again. I don;t want to have to take a crapload of pills to make me normal again I want it to just happen.

[(JD)]

Yeah I hear ya. I wish you could too. What I found is this: wherever I go, there I am. It's me that I can change, and nothing or no one else. I can move but because I am still me, the situations that arise will appear to be the same as where I left. I suspect this will also happen to you.

The best way to work it is to work on you so you can be okay where you are, and then when you do change scenarios, you will be different and able to create a better life there, where others don't know your previous struggles.

Now regarding medication... that's a terrible feeling to have towards stuff that is helping you. I'm so sorry that you are in such a "place." Try and think of the medication as helping your body make what it would normally to keep you healthy. Medicine often reestablishes the levels a person needs...and then the medicine isn't necessary any more. But what if it is? If it's to augment what your body quit producing, what of it? Your body requires certain things at various times, and medication helps it function the best it can for the time. Try to view medication as a tool you are using right now.

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[Superaxon]

Hey, it's got to be hard what you are going thru right now. Can you tell me what is happening with your life at this time?