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Schizophrenia Breakthrough
My Experience with Schizophrenia

Below I have listed out my symptoms, the difference between autism and schizophrenia, what happened to me. I would really appreciate it if the readers can give their comments.

What we know so far

Difference between schizophrenia and autism

autism is characterized by overload of sensory input.
And schizophrenia is characterized lack of sensory input. A schizophrenic is not able to observe and take in as much information when he/she sees things around them.

What now

Please read about the difference between autism and schizophrenia online.

Now if indeed autism is characterized by overload of sensory input and schizophrenia is characterized by lack of sensory input then my contention is that if a schizophrenic can get more sensory input then he/she should feel normal. I believe what I am able to do is to somehow get more sensory input which makes me feel normal.

Symptoms
Below are the symptoms that I have.

Positive symptoms
Delusions. I had false beliefs and dreams of grandeur. I also had many symptoms of OCD like turning lights on off repeatedly, touching corners of wall before sleeping , etc..
Thought disorder. Difficulty speaking and organizing thoughts
Disorganized behavior. silliness (sad to admit) and agitation (irritability and agitation when someone disturbs me when I used to prepare for exams).
Its difficult for me to make friends with the 2nd and 3rd category of symptoms above.
Negative symptoms
Loss of interest in everyday activities
Appearing to lack emotion
Reduced ability to plan or carry out activities
Neglect of personal hygiene
Social withdrawal
Loss of motivation
Cognitive symptoms
Irritability
My Experience
Well until age 16, I did not understand that there was something wrong with my actions (I was good at studies, was athletic enough and loved by parents, family and teachers).

When I went to college, I began to realize things that were wrong with me. The obsessive thoughts which were not logical yet I helplessly complied to and which wouldn't stop. And after a few months of trying to understand my own odd behaviour, I was at a point where I had no clue what was wrong with me. I did not have access to internet and was not sure if I was completely crazy.

About 4 years later I realized it was actually a disease called Schizophrenia that I had.

But what happened between these 4 years is what defines me today and I am trying to explain that here in this blog.. During these 4 years I analyzed my behavior a lot, came up with number of explanations to what was happening to me and how I can control them. Like trying to not give in to the strange illogical thoughts, concentrating on something, meditaton, physical activity, etc.. Nothing worked of course.

But something strange did happen to me one day. I was very tense and finally gave up trying to analyze myself and fight the strange thoughts and I just relaxed. At that point all of a sudden I was calm, felt like the disturbance in my mind was gone. I felt like time came to a standstill and I was experiencing the moment.
Over the course of the next few years, I have tried and am able to produce this (not sure how to define) and feel normal.



What happens with me

Some of the symptoms I am able to overcome when I renew that feeling are
Depression ( I am cheerful like i feel that life is worth living)
I am aware of my body language all of a sudden.
I am motivated to do things like meet people and have a few laughs or read/connect with people when I am talking
Disturbances in my head are gone.
I am relaxed
I feel like I am noticing things around me which I did not earlier.
I stop pacing around

Open Questions and Next steps

Now I do not know how to take this forward unless someone else can do this.
Whether I should let myself become an object of some experiment and go under ER scanner or something to see if some chemicals are produced in my brain when I do this ?
If someone is reading this, can you please comment ?

How to reproduce this

Now if someone who has schizophrenia wants to try this out, I am not really sure how to explain it.
Try letting your thoughts and everything on you mind go and let things around you occupy your mind

Well, Is it that simple ?

I do not have visual or audio hallucinations. I get only strange thoughts. I guess the positive symptoms I had were not extreme. So I was able to do this and manage without meds.

Medicines only concentrate on the positive symptoms, and I do believe what I am able to do should help people with schizophrenia.

[Travelinglady]

Hello and welcome to Psych Central! I am not sure what to say. Have you talked about your ideas with a professional? It would be interesting to hear what someone who is an expert would say. If you do, then please let us know what was said.