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Has anyone heard of it?

Brief Psychotic Disorder

Anyways I was diagnosed as having this at an inpatient program where i stayed for two weeks. I was also diagnosed as having anxiety, depression, paranoia and that i could be bi-polar too.

Here's the story. I was under so much stress I'm not going to say why because that gets too personal. Anyways I hadn't slept in about 5 days. I wrote this diary that was anxiety off the charts. And showed it both to my mom and my sister. -_- It is really embaressing what i wrote in there. Anyways I remember clearly it was my sister's birthday and i thought all these cameras were watching me. I also called my family drunk. I was kicked off the volleyball team thank God before i started acting too weird by my parents because i lost their trust with the personal thing i didnt want to talk about.
Anyways about a year before this i was feeling very suicidal was self-harming and had a serious case of depression. At the time i also felt like my mom was emotionally abusive. I thought my family didn't care about me. I also didn't know who i was. I was adopted and upon finding out my father was an abusive alcoholic was afraid i was like him and i had all these images in my head of what he was like especially while i was in the hospital. I also thought i was raped. Among many other things. It was hell seriously. I regret what i had said and done especielly to my family even though there was a point i had no control over myself.
I'm doing fine now and on medication. I dont want the symptoms to come back again because they might. I'm being put under similar stress that occured during this period when it happened. How do i stop myself from repeating what happened?

P.S What do i tell my volleyball team lol? I just dropped out with nobody knowing why it was very awkward. But who knows i might never see them again.

[*Laurie*]

The first thing that comes to my mind with regard to preventing another episode is that your sleep must be regular, stable, and restful. Do whatever you need to do, including speaking with your pdoc, to keep your sleep good. If you notice your slepp getting off track, immediately contact your pdoc

[Skeezyks]

You asked about brief psychotic disorder. Here are links to 2 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject:

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/b...rder-symptoms/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/kony-2...otic-disorder/

You can also search the internet for additional information. It appears there may be quite a bit of it out there.

You mentioned, initially, you were kicked off the volleyball team. But then you said you just dropped out with nobody knowing why. So I wasn't exactly sure what happened there. As far as what to tell them, should you ever see them again, you really don't owe anyone any more of an explanation than you care to give. You could just say you were ill or just say you had some things going on elsewhere that consumed all of your time & energy. So you just had to drop out for a while... something like that. But there again, you don't owe anyone an explanation.

You mentioned being concerned about the possibility of your symptoms coming back. It's important, I believe, not to become overly worried about this... not to dwell on it. Just keep up with your medications. Hopefully you're also seeing a counselor or therapist. (If you're not please do so if you can.) And, beyond that, get on with your day-to-day life to the greatest extent possible... (including volleyball?) I'm so glad you're doing well now. My best wishes to you...

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Thanks guys for your help.