[spondiferous]

I'm struggling right now. I just want to eat so bad. I'm so bored and so anxious. Things are going well but I can't stop obsessing and it's causing me to eat more than I need at meals and I just feel like everything is either spiralling out of control or about to. I have worked really hard to get where I'm at. Nothing in my recovery is about staying on a diet, adhering to a meal plan, anything like that. Yet I can't help but feel I'm about to crash big-time. Maybe it's because I've got so much good new stuff going and I'm afraid of losing it. All I've ever known is failure, in one way or another. I feel like I need to just distract myself 24/7 because if I really think about anything I'm going to lose my mind, seeing as how the last time I gave anything much thought (and by anything I mean my mental health) I ended up in the hospital getting ridiculed by a bunch of dumbass doctors.
I know I'm rambling. I just want to feel better. I am so ****ing tired of anxiety.

[Travelinglady]

I can certainly understand your feelings. I have to distract myself, too. I've heard that drinking a glass of water can be helpful. And, easier said than done, making sure to keep healthy snacks and foods in the house.

[Fuzzybear]