I never realized I was like this

I've just come across this area and I really did not realize there were other people in the same situation as me.

Last month I finally had to admit to myself that I rely on food for comfort. I had been following a diet and had been doing really well, and then one day at work I had a really bad day and got a takeaway on the way home to cheer myself up. Later that night, after eating more than I should, I thought about why I had done this and found that I do this every day.

Every day I struggle with normal life. And to make myself feel a little better I eat. The thing is I won't just make one thing and stop. I'm constantly looking for the next thing. If I didn't eat all day until tea time, I would be fine. But once I've started I cannot stop. I've gained a lot of weight, which makes me miserable, which makes me eat and then around the wheel goes again. On my days off, like today, I do the school run and then go back to bed hoping I can sleep so I'm not constantly scouring the kitchen for the next snack.

I have crohns disease and suffer with a lot of joint pain so exercising is hard, but I do walk a lot but mainly because I don't have a car. Yesterday I borrowed a friends car and ended up at KFC!!

I just can't seem to stop this circle of eating, being miserable so I eat then I'm miserable. Its very hard.

Hi Evaluna! Welcome to the Eating Disorders Forum! Sad you have to be here at all, tho. Emotional eating is such a catch-22. We eat because we feel bad -- then we feel bad because we eat.

I've only been eating healthy for a little over three weeks but i must say i feel amazing! It's a struggle every day -- sometimes several times a day. But i keep telling myself it will all be worth it -- to be at a healthy weight eventually.

I've overeaten for 19 years, since my divorce and stopping working. I stopped overeating for one year in 2007/08. I felt a lot better about myself -- proud of myself and so much more comfortable. I look forward to that again!

I think you just have to pick your moment as far as deciding starting to eat healthy is concerned. Hope your moment comes soon!

Welcome
We all know how you feel, and totally empathize
Thanks for sharing

Thank you everyone. I find it so comforting to know there are other people here who know exactly how it feels.

At the moment I'm not really in a great place in my mind but I'm making myself aware of what I'm doing rather than just aimlessly venturing round the kitchen cupboards.