[Adelissa]

I suffer from depression/anxiety/high blood pressure/arthritis/valley fever/ hashimotos thyroiditis, and am super morbidly obese (BMI 52). Last week I added another diagnosis - Type 2 diabetes. I want to change I really do, but I have so many obstacles the main one being my family is completely non supportive. My brother has been a type 2 diabetic for 3 years and he doesn't care, still eats like a pig. If I cook healthy low glycemic meals that are serving sizes, he accuses me of starving him. I fully accept that what I put in my mouth is my responsibility and no one is forcing me to eat. I have SO many bad habits to overcome. In some ways I feel like I have an eating disorder. anorexics try to take control by controlling what they eat, I feel out of control because of my family and I think that spills over into my eating. I know there are foods I will overeat on til they are gone so I don't bring them in the house (ice cream and sugary cereals mostly) However I can't stop others from doing it.I must find a way to be strong in spite of it all. I don't really have anyone to support me. My insurance has a diabetic educator that I made an appointment with so I know exactly what to eat. Weight loss surgery is out for now for mostly monetary reasons and the fact that it takes so long to qualify and I have to do something now before it's too late. How do you sustain motivation? I know this isn't a short term diet but a life long commitment.
The thing is I have a terrible relationship with food and I think I need counseling. I have trained myself that there shouldn't be leftovers. I need to be disciplined to only eat a portion and not worry bout the rest (my brother would prob eat it too) I actually don't enjoy eating. I like sandwiches and fast food because I can eat fast and not think about food. I think I need to tackle the heart of how to make food my friend again and not the enemy. I don't even like to eat anymore. I sometimes wish I could just take a pill or a shot and be done with it. I can't avoid food altogether the way an alcoholic can avoid alcohol. I tried OA but we only have 1 meeting in town and it just didn't feel right plus it is far away and I really don't drive much these days. Anything you can say, sources to maintain motivation, easy (really easy as in few ingredients I cant stand when a recipe calls for a ton of herbs and spices. we keep garlic onion powder salt and pepper on hand but that's it) low glycemic recipes, ideas, whatever. I just need a good support system that understands the unique challenges those of us with a lot to lose face.

[gayleggg]

Have you tried Weight Watchers? There may be a meeting for that closer to you.

You probably do need couseling to help you overcome the reasons behind why you eat so much. My Dad also used to be an eat everything on your plate sort guy. It took a long time for me to realize that I don't have to finish every bite, but still the thought goes through my mind everytime I eat, especially, when I eat out.

I hope you find the help you need. I wish there was an easy solution for you, but it's really up to you in the end. I do hope you get the support you need. I'm sorry your family is not providing this. It is sad they won't help.

[Standup2me]

Have you tried OE?