[Miracleofchildbirth]

Hello, everybody!

I would like to tell my story (as short as possible because tldr).
I was obsessed with clean eating for a while and was decreasing my calories lower and lower trying to achieve my goals. I was of course doing it the wrong way and inevitably my body said "stop, it's time to eat". Thus, began my binging cycle. I began by binding once a week, then twice, 3 times etc. I also started exercising less because I was disgusted with my bloat and acne that I didn't want anybody to see me in the gym.

I ended up binging every day and purging occasionally. A few times I binged, purged and then binged again. It was horrible! The stomach pain, endless tears, self hate. I didn't want to continue this way.

I've decided to go on a ketogenic diet which eliminates literally all carbs. And it actually worked. I have replaced my carbs with fat and I felt fully satisfied for the first time in years.

Now I know that eating disorders are more than just nasty habits that we should get rid of but this diet helped me actually start analyzing things and think about why I was harming myself.

I have recently binged again, partially because I felt like I wanted sugar, partially because I wanted to know what would happen to my body if I was kicked out of ketosis.

Miraculously, I didn't hate myself like I used to. I was mellow and neutral about the situation and I knew that I wouldn't do it again. I didn't feel good nor bad when I was binging and that is a major sign of recovery for me. Why would I continue to eat sugar in large quantities if it doesn't cause ANY emotion. It's an empty calorie and an empty emotion.

Keto literally changed my mindset and I'm very thankful for this diet.

I'm sharing this story to say that you shouldn't stop searching for cure for yourself! Do research, educate yourself, don't become a slave to inanimate edible objects.
I was in your place and I still am but I'm not stopping. I am working on loving myself, taking control of my life and being happy!

HUGS!!!!

[Skeezyks]

Hello Miracleofchildbirth: Welcome to PsychCentral! Thanks for sharing your story. We can all benefit from hearing about what has worked for others! Please keep posting!

[waggiedog]

Hi dear Miracleofchildbirth and Thankyou for taking the time to post you ED findings, very interesting to me and I'd imagine to others here too.
Yep, like you I've been through the whole sad and sorry senecio of binge~starve, purging and restricting and still do these things. I've been this way for more than 30 years, S I said, sadly. My family have had to live around this rubbish too, which is totally unfair.
Anyway thanks again dear friend. Xxxxxxx.