[miss_rainy]

I was at my grandmother's funeral and it was after the service where they serve food. I don't really get to see my mom like I did when I was at home and a lot of times we don't see eye to eye. Well, she saw her cousin and wanted to sit next to her so she could talk. Unfortunately there was no room and the table was originally for the immediate family. My sister then volunteered to move to another table and then mom was like "no! No! We'll move". My sis went anyway. The thing is I wanted my mom to stay because I wanted her to be around and I felt extremely comfortable with her, but because my sister was alone, she got up and sat near her and now I was alone.
My sister stays with her, gets to see her everyday and is closer to her than I am, and she doesn't remind her of my dad because I look like him. I always felt that she caters to her and she gets away with everything unlike me who gets in trouble.
So now, I'm alone with no one to talk too, like usual so... I start eating cake to fill that void... Lots of cake. It kept me busy but because I have addicting personality I would like to always have something in my mouth like I'm eating. Like I would just chew on gum 24 hours a day unless I'm actually eating food or sleeping. I think it will help me cope not only with what happened but with losing weight too. I have trouble losing weight but I'm always hungry and on the edge to binge but I figure by chewing gum I hold off longer to not eat. I think the ideas good but now I'm worrying about how much calories is in the gum and maybe instead of helping it will work against me because I'll constantly have gum in my mouth.

I feel like chewing is comforting but also annoying. I have a lot of problems including anxiety, depression and binge eating. I also feel I'm reverting to a little kid but that's a different story.
Anybody else have a situation or a problem like this?

[Outtofblue]

Sometimes eating is the only comforting thing one can do while awake. Sleep is the next best thing.

[miss_rainy]

Yeah. I love sleeping. I guess it's either eat or sleep then

[Fuzzybear]