Never really talked about it...

I know I have an issue with binge eating, but I've never talked about it. I had a huge issue in nursing school, then I stopped once I graduated and lost 30 lbs, especially because my first nursing job was so stressful that I actually was so nervous that I had a problem with eating. One of the jobs I had was overnight at a place with no cafeteria, and I would just not pack a lunch, then go home and crash without eating breakfast...10 more lbs lost.

Then I started my most recent job. I started talking to this guy around Christmas. We aren't dating, and our relationship isn't unhealthy. But there are aspects of both things which cause me stress. I get so hungry at work that I come home and stuff my face with whatever I can find. Or I go to McDonald's on the way home from a particularly stressful shift thinking, "I deserve to treat myself." And then I feel horribly about myself.

I had a little argument yesterday with my male friend and, though I keep telling myself lately I want to eat better because I need the energy to do my job better, I bought junk food and have been binging (and purging) for the last few hours

I haven't gained weight, but I feel like my body is getting flabbier, and I am not a tiny person anyway. I'm a nurse, and I need to fuel my body with more whole foods and less junk food in order to get through three 12 hour shifts in a row. I have done well with this before; I don't know what the issue is now.

I just needed to talk about this. Thank you.

Hello graystreet: I just wanted to send some hugs your way with the hope that you will be able to find a solution to this most difficult dilemma.

Thinking of you today and hope you're finding some peace. I am new to the boards but having a rough time myself with binging. I feel like all I've been doing is gaining weight and also have been going through fast food places on the way home from work when stressed. I'm just not sure how to stop. I am starting to come to the conclusion I cannot do it alone. But I'm not sure if I'm ready to yet.... I know my health is being seriously affected.... you're not alone and I'm thinking of you!