My Significant other, (I'll put him that way) has been suffering with depression because he too is a care giver for his brother on a full time bases and he suffers with PTDS from the gulf war. He was a Sargent in command of security. We haven't been together that long, only about a year and a half, and it seems like I've gotten into this relationship about the time he's started plunging into this depression. I have problems with depression too, I do understand it, (oh and I am on medications too and see a doctor) however, he's been falling even worse into it these days and his side effects of this has been causing me to fall into it. I can be and have to be stronger here tho, but sometimes it just takes everything I've got. I do love him dearly. It's a situation where, I've got to be strong because he needs me to be. ( he does take care of me too tho in other ways) He's on St Johns Wart. He wont take any prescriptions for this. He's on a few others for his PTDS and disability. The reason why I also love him so is because he really does take care of his self and is not an alcoholic or drug or even prescription drug addict. But I do need to be able to talk to, chat with, others with the same issues. I don't understand everything about him. This all confuses me causing me to clam up or to gaze into such confusion about this relationship. But I don't see us parting anytime soon. He's at least aware of what is happening to him and he confronts me on this. My issue is his ups and downs. He's sweet sometimes and then it wont be but a few moments later and he's snappy and plain mean. Sex is near to nothing. I don't understand that one, however, he is in his later 50's too and I have studied much on that. I get confused that maybe he's just not attracted to me, to points where I wonder if he's gay. But truthfully, I know he's suffering from depression. He has made a point to tell his sister in law that he can not watch his brother anymore because it's taking too much from him. Thanks for reading and I am glad to be here.
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