[BDPpartner]

As always things have blown up and my other half is either giving me the cold shoulder or verbally attacking me and tomorrow the 2 of us are due to go away for 3 wks. I don't want to go, I know it's going to be hell and i'm not going to have anyone to turn to He's already humiliated me, by screaming at me in the street outside my parents this afternoon. And he wonders why/calls me a cry baby because all i do is cry and the moment, the doctor has double my depression meds but i'm still crying so much that my eyes are red and swollen so badly that i've had to start telling people i've had an allergic reaction. Just want to curl up in bed and not get up til next year.

[Travelinglady]

So sorry to hear about that. Is there no way the two of you could bury the hatchet (not in each other's heads), so you can have a good time? Perhaps by agreeing to disagree at least until you can calm down and talk about it later? A three-week holiday needs to be a good time!

[BDPpartner]

We're approaching the end of our first wk away. He woke me in the middle of the night telling what a spoilt b***h i am that he hates me, not the first time this holiday he's told me he hates me, and then throws me out of the bed and room telling to f off to the spare bed he proceeds to send texts keeping me awake telling me how nasty i am etc. Has told me i'm a fat ***** who's not allowed to buy or eat chocolate cos i'm so unhealthy and over weight; i've dropped 2 dress sizes without dieting last couple of months, probably stress. Has called me everything under the sun, dragged up everything no matter how tiny from our time together to throw at me. Told me i think i'm something special, that i'm perfect and god's gift to men. I don't and tried to explain for the tenth time that i'm on antidepressants because i hated myself, was selfharming and believed nobody not even my own parents could love me. This was thrown back in my face with lots of venom Now when he looks at me i just see how much he hates me and feel like he's repulsed by me