[Lurng]

I am the caregiver in my family of 2, we are both 52. My wife was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic and she has been this way since 1990. We have been married for 5 years and known her for 15 years all together. I do not know what to do any more. She wants to die and she tells me so. I try to do what she wants me to. There is no family support for her family since we married they do not even call to see how she is doing. She says that she will not hurt me, but I do not trust her any more. I worry about her when I leave the home to leave her home is terrifing to me. I love her so very much. She writes some but, when I read it it is like the same thing is going through her mind all the time. She doesn't want to divorce me because this is the only thing she has left in life. And I always tell her that That is the last thing on my mind. Her aunt killed herself with this and the family never told me till she did, she doesn't even remember her name. and the family doesn't speak up. I am almost at the end of my rope and I found this site. Are there greater answers then I have for now?

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))))

I am sorry for the sorrow and pain that both you and your wife are going through right now.... I know that it is hard from all sides of the fence, for the one suffering from the mental / medical disorder to the one that loves this person, in having to stand by and watch their love one fade away.
I was once the person that was fading away as my husband watch (trying to help me) and yet feeling helpless in the thought of what I might do when the morning came with the sun which meant that he would have to leave me for work - that which was needed (for $$$) so that our family would survive.

I personally can tell you that while I did with out a doubt think of ending my life for years on end, every minute and every hour of the day.... that all I really wanted was for the mental h*ll inside of me to STOP!! - to leave me alone in PeAcE, so that I could seek HAPPINESS.... that which I had not touch in years.

I believe that your wife is reaching out to you, for most people that are really going to go thru with death do not usually tell another about their plans.... she is shouting: I NEED HELP!!

Please try to stand strong and continue to talk to all of us here at PC - to enable you to release your stress and worries.... the SUN will SHINE again one DAY.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

does your wife have a physician? call him immediatly and make an appointment for the both of you.......if she will go.....if she won't go, you go and find out what the doctor thinks.........good luck, pat