[Candicindi13]

I'm glad I can txt this cuZ I can't say the words. My ex father of our teenage sons is a somatic narcissist. We got bak together last March 2014 after almost 5 years of my having no contact. As soon as we did my sister (I cut her off years ago) kept calling him posting things on FB like she was heartbroken over him. I thot it was crazy. Then shed send sexually explicit msg to me THRU my 11/9 yr old grkids about herself and msg to my kids dad. He never stood up for me if anything he sided against me. We were living together and her or her friends were driving by our house or trying to knock on my door like we're friends. Finally few months ago my daughter whose 31 told me they weren't just friends my ex and my sis having sex it hit me like a ton of bricks I was out of my mind w misery I cudnt focus I kicked him out. He kept swearing on our sons lives they never had sex and xmas I let him bak he was begging but I cudnt stop asking and fighting and it made no sense why shed say it or why she was so in love w him. I threw him out again he'd beg but I said go went no contact making slow but decent progres. Yesterday my grkids come over telling me all summer they'd see my ex at my sisters in her bedroom like bf /gf I said wat? Why didn't u tell me they said they forgot I thot forgot ? Plus my sis and her old has been prostitute friend (also in Luv w my ex) were saying horrible made up lies about me sexually TO my grkids. I am horrified my grkids r being used to send or say sexually explicit msg I am devastated that my ex wanted my grkids to keep that secret they Luv me I Luv them i pikd them over his bulkshit and i try be a good mom and grama and he's screwing my sister whole time . I can't breathe wen I think about it I've never felt pain like this

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[healingme4me]

Hi Candicindi13,

Welcome to PC!

Hope you find this community as warm and supportive, as I have.

If you have any questions or concerns, don't hesitate to ask any of the Community Liasons for help and gentle board guidance.

[Candicindi13]

I don't know if I'm posting this rite place. I can go all day be fine and then it hits me i pic my ex being w my sis and it's eithor unbearable pain or such extreme anger I wanna do something so bad to them. I still love him and I know I know I can't let him bak in. I don't think he wants bak in and that is killing me. My sister is in Luv w him and I'm sik about it even tho she gets next to nothing from him she still stays. I wanna do wats good for me

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[Candicindi13]

I feel better today trying to focus on positive sides to this horrible abuse by my ex narcissist. He's leaving me alone cuZ he's wringing his hands cackling like a cartoon villain enjoying fruits of his labor. Wat a coward. He'll come out of hiding as soon as he needs more supply that's wen I need to be on guard and show no response. I want to call him every coward in book but it turns him on so can't giv him any response. Positives : his reward is my nasty sister and her reward is him. Oddly this thot makes me happy cuZ I know they won't be and I can be without them in my life.

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