I do not think I have actual BPD, but I have some of the symptoms.

I am tired of living a lonely, frustrated life. If any of you know how to deal with any of these problems please share your tips.

I forgot the original source for 2, 3,4, 6 and 7 (found them on a borderline internet discussion). I believe they originally came from an American Psychological Association DSM. I cannot post links on my first post.

I do not think I have actual BPD, but I was reading over the symptoms and I do have some of them. I am a very calm, polite collected person. I know how to hide my anger. I would never think of committing suicide or anything like that. I just...shut down. Sometimes I drink to help this process, but I have gotten really good at just forgetting people. I mean, I suppose it doesn't matter because I would never hurt anyone. However, I am 22 and tired of getting whipped around by everyone. I am tired of not being able to maintain friendships or mentorships of any sort. I currently have no friends other than my partner.

2. a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.

This one really describes me the most out of all of the characteristics. I can become someone's best friend after ten minutes and will think they are the greatest person ever. I overshare, I don't realize it is oversharing until something awkward happens or the person looks uncomfortable. I can be a great friend to someone until they manipulate me or do something that makes me uncomfortable. After that, I often stay until I mentally cannot take it anymore. I tend to take surface appearances seriously and don't easily see what is under the surface. Furthermore, I can never confront anyone about his or her manipulative behavior. I just sort of forget they exist and ignore them. I have the anger, but I channel it into apathy. I just pretend I never knew them. All of my "friends" end up manipulating me and I have had money (hundreds of dollars), property ect. stolen from me on several occasions. I tend to idolize people easily, especially if they are attractive, smart and well spoken. I often find ordinary people boring. I like flashy, attractive charismatic people. I am easily won over my brains and charm.

However, I am (lesbian) engaged to a woman and we have been going out for three years. We have a very happy relationship. It is the only one that I have ever been able to maintain for more than six months or so.

3. identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.

I am unconfident and often wavering. I never know which group of people/ ideology to identify with. I will idealize a group and than hate it for its flaws.

4. impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating).

I am really impulsive. I am very careful about the safety of others, but I could care less what happens to me. I tend to change my life/year plans daily and love danger. I do not drink often, but when I do I don’t pay attention to how much I drink or if I am going to pass out somewhere random. I have wandered the streets alone at night while intoxicated many times. I often go to dangerous places by myself/travel alone. I often end friendships on a whim with no explanation.

6. affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days).

I am really moody. I can go from extremely happy to extremely sad and back again in under an hour. I know how to control it though. I can act ok and then rush to the bathroom and cry or make up an errand and cry somewhere else. I can be really upset about something and forget about it completely by the next day. Usually, I hide these feelings, but even my partner thinks I am moody. I get especially moody (sometimes with harmful thoughts) when I am about to start my period. Other than that time of the month, I can control/suppress most of my mood swings people will not notice them.

7. chronic feelings of emptiness

I do often feel pretty empty. I try to fill it by distracting myself with random things (television, reading, ect.). But at the end of the day I find most people irritating and most activities boring/not worth my time. I feel like I am going nowhere and there is nothing I wish to accomplish in my life. I have a BA and a minimum wage job, but honestly have no idea what I want to do with my career. I feel like I am not good enough for a “real job”.

Thank you everyone for reading and responding to this. I hate shrinks with a passion. I just need someone to talk to.

Have a great day/evening!

It sounds like you do fit the criteria...I would urge you to seek professional help and maybe get on the way to a diagnosis or treatment. Even if you don't have BPD, the symptoms you are describing are obviously distressing and effecting your life, and it might help to talk to someone to find out how to start relieving them.