[bective]

Not sure if this is the correct place to open this but allow me to explain myself?

I lived a fairly straightforward life at the time of my 21st birthday when I started to look at life in a totally different manner to what I was used to.

Belief in religion started to leave me, I would question why I would wake up every morning because it all seemed so worthless and pointless. The first 2 years of it were particularly bad as what I would consider normal was now something of a distant memory.

Along the way things like Sport which had interested me started to appeal less and less and things like music and TV kept me ticking over.

My life hasnt been too bad in the last couple of years but I still see myself a bit detached from reality slightly.I have a lot of interest in things like Sport, Technology, Current Affairs, Humour,keeping fit, constantly looking to lear new things to the point of strange obsession perhapsand the occasional night out again.To the outside I feel I am judged as being relatively normal even though my experience of life in the past 10 years was nothing like it was from the ages of 7 to 21.

Even though I'm aware of my troubles and am sometimes 'Zoned Out' for lack of a better word I'm always extra careful in things like crossing the road, cooking, cleaning and washing up after myself even though it does worry me sometimes if what I'm doing is right.

Despite being a bit disassociated with reality at times I still think I'm fairly normal.I just wanted to ask any of ye if ye have ever experience this and if it was fairly common or not.

[Blue_Bird]

Hi bective, I don't have a personality disorder but I know dissociation is fairly common in BPD, you're normal