[annoyedgrunt84]

I feel like My biggest problem is that I have been coddled to by my family my entire life. I'm afraid to leave my parents house because I don't think I can make it on my own. I feel like a fly that has had all it's wings and legs pulled off. Just totally helpless. I also have a lot of anxiety and depression too, it's pretty hard for me to sort out which is my primary problem. I think about needing to be more independent which, makes me anxious, which makes me depressed, it fades somewhat for a few days, maybe even a few weeks then the cycle starts over. I know I need to be back in therapy but I live in a pretty rural area and the only mental health clinic within my community I don't really like.

[kaliope]

i think the term you might be going for is "learned helplessness". if you really want to get better, then you will go to the local mental health clinic. could it be you dont like them because they suggest you change? and change is scary? and we dont like scary so we dont like them. just a hunch. it may be something totally different. to get well though, you have to want your independence more than that fear.

[annoyedgrunt84]

You're absolutely right about learned helplessness, and change being scary. Though they seem very disengaged at the clinic, there's only one therapist and she just doesn't have time for someone who's biggest problem is "learned Helplessness"