[defyinggravity65]

For the past 2 years of my life I have been experiencing extreme anxiety and have been obsessing over my mistakes, along with feeling extremely guilty for them.
I feel like all my emotions are abnormally strong.

Today's situation:
Didn't go to thanksgiving festivities because I was too anxious. Waiting all day for my boyfriend to come back, super excited to see him. He was back for 20 min and informed me that he was going to a friends. I got super (abnormally) upset because I didn't see him all last night, and now tonight, and he just also decided to go hunting up north so I won't be seeing him all weekend.

I live with him and stay at home most of the time due to severe anxiety and my illness, POTS. I take it was a personal threat when he chooses to do other things besides sit at home with me.

So, as he was driving out of the driveway, I opened up the door and screamed "you f*cking a**hole!" as loud as I could and slammed the door.

Now, I'm sitting in my bedroom not knowing what in the world is wrong with me.

Please help. I need someone to talk to about this.

[here today]

Since you have a Dx and Rx, I'm guessing that you have a pdoc and/or therapist? Maybe not regular appointments, but can you call and ask for a special appointment, or just speak to them over the phone? Sounds like maybe you need more help than you're getting now? Since you're writing in the Personality Place forum, I'm guessing you're wondering if maybe you have a PD? Could be just extreme stress, a professional would probably be in a better position to say.

[kecanoe]

You might want to ask about DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy), it would probably help with your emotions. It helps keep emotions and behavior in control.