[Caspy]

Hi there..! My name is Casper, and I came here on behalf of a slight concern of mine caused recently. This morning, and kind of yesterday, I seemed to have an odd personality change. If this isn't supposed to be here, I apologize in advance and will fix it if need be..!

Usually I'm always cracking self-loathing jokes and having constant depression or irritation. This morning I was alright. I had some stress going on from the fact that senior pictures were taking place and I was having some dysphoria over the thought of having to wear a dress, but that was really it.. I was trying to not stress too much considering I was still planning to wear what I wanted. I was having fun with friends and joking around, before it suddenly changed..

Suddenly, my mood drained to a numb sadness and fear. I kept doing a new habit of mine, which is to rub my thumb along my sleeve, jacket zipper line, my other hand, etc. I was biting my lip a lot and was easily frightened or worried whenever I thought someone would yell or get angry. I was constantly nervous. I was so afraid of being ignored.
I wouldn't talk much, and when I did, my voice came out small and a little louder than a whisper. I would even stutter. I also almost frequently cried throughout the morning. My thoughts were simple, like if I was happy or sad, or if a person was being mean or nice. I still had full memory however, nothing there changed.

So does anyone have any idea what could have happened..? After a couple hours, I became extremely irritated and just beat myself down mentally before then growing depressed and finally crying. It's been constant mood swings like this lately, but it was really extreme today..!

[Rincad]

It could be either natural mood swings or the start of a mental disorder. By the sound of it depression. I noticed you haven't gotten any replies on this thread. Depression can cause mood swings and dysphoria. Anxiety is common. But it probably was before mild or worse and became more severe. I suggest you go to therapy and see a psychiatrist or psychologist. You need treatment before this gets any worse. I hope that helps. We can't diagnosis here so a professional can only do that.

[here today]

Did anything happen or anybody say or do something that might have "triggered" you? Sounds to me kinda like a dissociative type thing. You can have that with emotional states and still retain full cognitive memory of objective facts (I did). Maybe post also in the Dissociative Disorders forum?

[Caspy]

Originally Posted by here today

Did anything happen or anybody say or do something that might have "triggered" you? Sounds to me kinda like a dissociative type thing. You can have that with emotional states and still retain full cognitive memory of objective facts (I did). Maybe post also in the Dissociative Disorders forum?

I took your advice and just posted there too. Thank you! And no, nothing really triggered it. It sometimes happens when I get overwhelmed like if I get someone angry or my s/o is upset, but I don't remember anything happening that day to cause it.

[Caspy]

Originally Posted by Rincad

It could be either natural mood swings or the start of a mental disorder. By the sound of it depression. I noticed you haven't gotten any replies on this thread. Depression can cause mood swings and dysphoria. Anxiety is common. But it probably was before mild or worse and became more severe. I suggest you go to therapy and see a psychiatrist or psychologist. You need treatment before this gets any worse. I hope that helps. We can't diagnosis here so a professional can only do that.

I see.. thank you for the help! It only just started happening in the last few weeks and it's rather strange for it to happen like this 0-0

[amandalouise]

unfortunately I cant tell you what this is with in you. all we can do on this site is tell you what this is with in ourselves. in me this is called normal and also part of my many mental and physical health problems.

to find out what this is with in you, you will need to contact your own doctors who can diagnose the problem in you.

[here today]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

unfortunately I cant tell you what this is with in you. all we can do on this site is tell you what this is with in ourselves. in me this is called normal and also part of my many mental and physical health problems.

to find out what this is with in you, you will need to contact your own doctors who can diagnose the problem in you.

Hi amandalouise,

I understand that you have had good experience with doctors who were able to diagnose you relatively early in life. I did not.

I eventually got to my dissociative disorders specialist because a support group member with DID thought she recognized symptoms in me that therapists had not. I went to a specialist and was eventually diagnosed with DDNOS.

So, I don't see how sharing our experience and thoughts with a poster is in any way out of line.

My experience with my last therapist broke down -- rupture without repair -- over a year ago due to what is probably NOT a dissociative disorders condition and I have found support on PC that I could not find anywhere else. I appreciate people's comments even when they don't seem "right on" for me. I can try to discriminate between what is "right on" for me and what is not a lot better with comments on PC than I could with doctors who for years didn't have a clue. And may have made things worse for me while they didn't.

I think I'm doing a little better these days, "with a little help from my friends". Doctors, too, but right now I prefer to stick with my friends.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by here today

Hi amandalouise,

I understand that you have had good experience with doctors who were able to diagnose you relatively early in life. I did not.

I eventually got to my dissociative disorders specialist because a support group member with DID thought she recognized symptoms in me that therapists had not. I went to a specialist and was eventually diagnosed with DDNOS.

So, I don't see how sharing our experience and thoughts with a poster is in any way out of line.

My experience with my last therapist broke down -- rupture without repair -- over a year ago due to what is probably NOT a dissociative disorders condition and I have found support on PC that I could not find anywhere else. I appreciate people's comments even when they don't seem "right on" for me. I can try to discriminate between what is "right on" for me and what is not a lot better with comments on PC than I could with doctors who for years didn't have a clue. And may have made things worse for me while they didn't.

I think I'm doing a little better these days, "with a little help from my friends". Doctors, too, but right now I prefer to stick with my friends.

I wasnt saying we cant share our own experiences. we can we just cant tell each other what they have in them.... the rules of the site dont allow us to make diagnosises for each other...

the harm is someone can die. someone can needlessly be stressed out for nothing based on strangers online telling them they may have this or that.

theres a huge difference between saying

" in me this is called this or that" (which is sharing my own problems)

vs saying

"I think you may have dissociation, you have DID, sounds like you have dissociation disorders" (which is diagnosing other peoples problems with out knowing them, with out knowing their complete medical and mental history, meds and so on.

what is the harm? I had a friend (yes had, she is dead now) she died because she had a non cancerous tumor that could have been removed, in her body that was causing her to have memory problems, losing track of time, appearing to switch personalities, appearing to have others in her head, voices, everything that people with dissociative disorders go through. a life was lost because others online led her to believe she had a dissociative disorder with their guesses and sounds like and you haves.

there is a reason why there is that rule at the bottom of every page and Im glad its there.

its hard enough to find and read a thread saying a member here has died, imagine what it would be like to find out someone here that you know has died because people here made diagnosis's of that persons problems.

(by the way the website group where this happened got closed down and had legal issues for allowing strangers online to diagnose each other so again yes there is harm being done when telling others they may have, it sounds like this or that online)

the way I see online groups like this now, is would i go out on the street and ask anyone out there heres my symptoms what do you think I have.... of course not right. kind of ridiculous to do that right. just walk out the door and ask anyone outside heres whats happening do you know what this is.... well thats what I would be doing online if I did that. it isnt like we all know each other, go to dinner with each other and have a life time of knowing each other face to face. though online can .......seem ....... friendly, the bottom line is behind the computers most online are complete strangers. just like walking out the front door and asking all those strangers passing on the street to tell me whats wrong with me.

again Im not saying we cant share our own problems (in me this or that) Im saying I feel its not right for me to go around online telling people what I think that may or may not have. thats diagnosing someone, being a substitute for someone going out and talking with their own doctors which clearly isnt allowed here

[here today]

I think you and I disagree, amandalouise. I don't think people saying on this forum "this sounds like this to me" or "this sounds like that to me" are the same at all as diagnosing a problem. Please contact the moderators, if you like, and have them contact me and tell me if they see anything potentially harmful or hurtful with my post.

On a thread in another forum you wrote:

at the bottom of every page on psych central you will find this....

"The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice,
diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.
Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here."

I'm very sorry about your friend, and I agree that checking for physical causes of a seeming psychological condition is a good idea. But without your additional explanation it's hard for me to see how anybody would see a good reason for taking that very good advice.