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#26
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My apologies for saying
That your mum Had never worked A day in her life. Even if you and dunderhead Took the mick Out of my work. After juggling sugar cubes I realised that Blood, tears & cold Still is never enough To fix a broken spirit. Everyone needs a friend Like Sarah I remember she Got a bit of stick As a youngster Sone kid said Her hair looked like a nest And she went off crying Saying no one loves me Only as an adult After my own problems That I realised She was quite brave Crying with temper Not hurt she said. |
#27
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Good job I never went to Sweden
Against the big guns Did you have to rub More salt into the wound I know I was beaten Fair and square Wee hoosey. Flaw. Bakers. I don't think I could Have found the money To travel all over, anyway It wasn't a wasted trip If I can take anything It would be how in love This couple were Singing along to Bob Marley All these countries And cultures together Bonding over good food Peaceful reggae music Last edited by Unbrokensoulgeron; Apr 21, 2018 at 03:37 PM. |
#28
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The bottle of sourz Would have been enough. Freds cousin put me On a guilt trip So I put the dvd in As an after thought I just liked the title. That band was Part of the soundtrack To our disappearing youth. |
#29
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You cannot kick me off
I have no body Made of skin & bone So you won't have To feed me I can catch fish Because they won't see me coming Sail on the Danube To Berlin Kick big bird off She scares me |
#30
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Somebody else typing The out put was faster Some wine for you Seen the light Seen my nipple ring Right in night club Marilyn moment in Hypnotic carpets If tom n jerry can do it I most definitely can do it Away with the fairies Seven fold |
#31
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Juggling while in goals
I feel like such a loser For doing it now But mope a dope Said I was A closed book at times And was secretive. I lied about Meeting my friend When I was seeing An older guy And the nosey Parker Found out like He always did And he had the nerve To call his "students" fish wives. But the person Who gave me tips On juggling said to me Don't you have a dream? You have to have a dream. And without this Frothing in my unconscious I'm not sure I could have stuck At my mundane Nine to five Minimum wage job Where I was Treated with no respect Because the Boss Knew there were Plenty of unskilled women Needing a job With full time hours That could fill My shoes in an instant. Or so they thought. A guy at skating shop Said I should Go back and keep teaching. But the coach Was never that taken With me. He never Understood me at all. He said I was intelligent But homed in On my shaky confidence. My team mates Were strident and sure of themselves Where I faltered. I out grew the club That's all there is to it. My parents weren't much better. They were so narrow minded And sung the praises Of louder people Who had nothing to hide. One minute they liked My friend who was: What you see is What you get. But then she Got too promiscuous. And they panicked That I would be led astray. They mocked me When they found I had printed out guitar charts And juggling diagrams I didn't let them deter me I had found my conviction. I bought a guitar And I liked the juggling It had a rhythm to it Like dancing. So I made a point Of trying too hard To become more outgoing. Yet I played my music At the bag circuit class The bravery, stereophonic And I doodled the Names of all the Hip hop, rnb n soul I listened to On my folders When I was bored I did not mind Who read them. I let people scroll Through my zen micro Or MP3 before that. I told team mate That I only looked Up the lyrics When I liked A song and had Listened to it Loads of times And couldn't make Out some lyrics And I usually liked The feel of a song Over the lyrics. I read blues and soul and NME. Last edited by Unbrokensoulgeron; Apr 29, 2018 at 04:07 PM. |
#32
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I told colleague
With the crucifix That I stayed At Freds house At the weekends Because when I Was in between jobs (I meant just out of hospital) That I had to have All the housework Done by 12 And my mum Would find one Job I had forgotten And down me By saying I had Barely scratched the surface. They forced me Down to the Job centre before I Was ready to collect Job seekers allowance Every two weeks. I remember one Advisor who also Wore an oversized Crucifix saying that Her daughter had Just left school And was my age And despite my Baggy jeans and beanie hat She said I should Try the agency She had applied to. And I knew I was not in the Mindspace at that moment In time to sit At a desk job In front of a computer. |
#33
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I was so
Self conscious Of the weight I had put on While in rehab That I wore Baggy jeans and Was grungy with A splash of colour I had one friend who Could afford to buy Jeans from the skating Shop and I looked up to her More than being jealous. I remember a team mate Being complimented for Their tomboy Skate style jeans And I had my slightly Flared ordinary jeans Because I read In a magazine That flares take The attention away From wide hips. My step dad Used to say jokes And my mum Would Say he would give Me a complex I didn't but I was so conscious When shopping I could wear white On top half As it makes boobs Look bigger as a Friend commented when They realised that I "looked like I had Something there" and Should wear white on Nights out more often My coach laughed At me when he saw Me in a gypsy skirt In a night club. That was in fashion At that time. And a woman at My sports class Said he probably Wasn't used to seeing Me dressed up. I couldn't wear White jeans and To be honest I thought they Were a slutty But I wore see through tops And tank tops With see through Lace on the back. My friend said I was more aware Of my sexuality And I loved Wearing skinny jeans I could live in jeans My friend wore Her little black dress To work night out. I never made pron As I dropped out But I hadn't Wore a dress in years. When I was out with Fred In a dress Some married man From sports club Went passed me drunk And said "slapper" I would not have Cheated on Fred. I remember going Past the gym In light blue Wide cut jeans And conscious That they didn't sit As long as I would have wished The tall was too long And the regular I just got away with In time I just Gave up on fashion And wore what was comfy Etnies skate shoes Vans camouflage skate shoes Black jeans green tshirt A neutral fleece Practical warm and comfy. Seeing girls in leggings With "camel toe" When up the town I was too out of shape For figure hugging leggings. At high school We didn't tie Our laces just Tucked them in And wore our Black trousers slightly Longer than needed And they would Get ripped at Bottom hem from Dragging on ground. But this was Better than having A growth spurt And ending up With them too short Last edited by Unbrokensoulgeron; Apr 30, 2018 at 05:53 AM. |
#34
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I could have
Got a job too Swear! Yeah my neighbour Worked at the cafe On a Saturday. But I knew One of the young Saturday girls was cool. But the other Was rumoured to Be quite bi^chy And they were friends So chances were I would be singled out. I got a job At a factory When I dropped out. I got the p^ss Ripped out of me And guys who I knew were Not on my wave length Hit on me. Goodbye. |
#35
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I'm not getting
A Job in a poxy Corner shop. Well whats good Enough for me Is good enough for you Beggars can't be choosers You got the dunt From Asda and Nobody gets hoofed from there. On the tip of my tongue Was that it Was her fricking fault. All of Freds work And the tradesman Knew that one Of the manager Hated my mother. So of course Why would the others Be cordial? My mother never claimed Job centre money When she was Off for months Yet when I was Ill and needing rest I still had to Face the humiliation Of signing on. |
#36
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I never put the bees
Through the letter box And the cats neither Just to clarify. Last edited by Unbrokensoulgeron; May 02, 2018 at 06:22 AM. |
#37
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My hair was frizzy
From the rain And she balls: "You like you have just woke up! And btw your good at blow jobs Your use for something after all" She nips my male coworkers bum And he blushes crimson. |
#38
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I didn't think I stood
A cat in hells chance So I didn't straighten my locks And left my thick unruly hair down. Nobody gave me any support Or advice before the interview. And it was a great opportunity . There was scope to move From being the photocopier To learning the business. But I had zilch self-confidence now. Nobody asked me what would I wear etc. Had I prepared for questing. Nothing. But my mum told me After going for a receptionists job That my grey top with a shirt collar Would never do me any favours. Was I sabotaging myself on purpose? Her work mate said that Why did a pretty young girl Like me, find it so tough to get work. I just wanted to find a corner and cry and disappear. |
#39
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Your hair is always frizzy
Somebody has got new straighteners Maybe I felt un noticed Maybe It was tousled. It wouldn't have been that bad. I can do big hair and you can't. Get on your bike and go fuk yourself. |
#40
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My step dad explained
That his dad brought Him up to not show emotions And he couldn't join The football team he wanted to Because he was too Self concious of his boots As they were not The tip top of the range. Women aren't quite as obsessed With labels as men traditionally. But times are changing. How is Grimsby? I left the chemist Without picking up my meds And had to go back. I had not been pally With her since 2nd year. But I he remembered We trained together. I had been disgraced. |
#41
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I realise that my cousin
Is not just suffering from "Spoilt brat syndrome" Her feelings are valid. When my gran passed away Her brother announced While walking to the pub "Do you know what the bad Thing about earning more money (than his sis)? I have to buy the drinks All the time. None of us took him on. That is his insecurity, big deal. My cousins mum wasnt there And I think she felt a bit lost Without a wing woman. Here is me complaining About a push bike And her brother went To a school costing Thousands a year where She went to a normal Comprehensive and if I remember Rightly, she did just as well In her A levels as her sibling I said to my sis n law Who loves animals That my cousin has a horse When at the tea's But my cousin Didn't want to brag Like her brother did. I was just trying to To be nice and initiate conversation. She didn't day much at all For the duration of the day. Drunk her sourz and lemonade And asked about Our little Archie. I told my mum that Calving Harris was a trolley boy. Last edited by Unbrokensoulgeron; May 04, 2018 at 07:25 AM. |
#42
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My pal who went
Ice skating with me Said I was competitive And said she liked my Etnies I succeeded at looking cool Every now and then. Just banter. She said she envisioned Me with a bright orange Souped up car And I laughed saying I like the burnt orange colour! |
#43
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Boys are stupid
Throw rocks at them I am sorry That trampoline joke Was bang out of order. Even if I thought That was your orientation. It was to do with You being George At the weekend And having your bits Stored and pickled in a jar. I was an as^hole I was worse than Lip From shameless As a teen. Hardly Any wonder I got A slap here or there. But you had lied About the babysitter. And my family and neighbours Were homophobic so I honestly thought It was impossible for me To be attracted to someone Who wasn't male. I didn't actually think That you were gay. At the time. It was just the t-shirt. I was out of touch With feelings, my own and others. I survived by numbing my emotions And making jokes. I am really sorry. |
#44
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Ammendment: I was a clown. If I took what everyone said about me seriously and didn't laugh, I would have been six feet under. They say that an overdose is normally a cry for help and a painful way to go as your organs shut down one by one. I did want an escape. I wanted to escape Fred. Change is so gradual I have learned that you don't even notice until something stark jumps out at you or someone says hey "you don't walk with your head down anymore"
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#45
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So my step dad
Begrudgingly put up Dart board on the back Of the coat closets door. Maybe what he said When he was drunk Was not a true reflection Of what he really felt. But him trying to be tough. But he had to show A brave face and No young person Can sit and watch TV all day. We would get a visit From a mentally handi- capped Bloke on same street Everybody had a soft spot For him because he Was definitely harmless. But me being stuck at home And my parents not Handling my rehab stay well. Basically saying I Would never recover, I said that they Tested him with more respect Than they did me And he didn't even have emotions Then said he doesn't understand them Slip of the tongue. I felt like they Treated him more humanely Than they did me. And he would always Be that way. Unable to look after himself. All I needed was a rest and some space. But what more can I say It was twelve years ago And I am here today in one peace And my mind still has potential. |
#46
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For being so childish Chanting Sperm whale And telling everyone I was "easy" When I just like boys as friends |
#47
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I also wonder what
The teacher whispered To you in the Vic. Ms. would be paramedic. But on the other hand He was trying to encourage Me to stay on. |
#48
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My parents were over protective.
I went home to Watch sky movies While my friends Got drunk and spoke to the n.e.b. It was Freds cousin specifically, Who had major issues. She didn't do as well In her exams as she thought. I was being humble Saying I just had a good memory And she said : That's because your Autistic . I thought it was simply Her dark sense of humour. And I let it slide. But she said it Again and again. And I realised that She was convinced of this. |
#49
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Giving me award. I didn't feel deserved of it. Considering it was a teachers Fault that my Subconscious erected a Wall between my emotions And memories. I began To consider that I may Find answers, not in pictures. But that words Can create picture. We all read books And have an impression Of what the characters May look like in real life. And when we watch films Sometimes we are like: DorIan Gray is blonde In the book I envisioned him as Ryan Gosling Not Prince Caspian. |
#50
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All my English teachers
Were inspiring to me. Thank you to all three. |
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