borderline...

i dunno. i don't even know how this ****ing disease developed. at first they said it was social anxiety, and now they say it's BPD. i don't know what i have anymore. i just know something's very very wrong with me.

Failure to show adequate nonverbal signs of distress is a borderline trait. People don't believe me that I'm hurt (emotionally) when I am, because I don't tend to show it.

I've been dxed with social anxiety a couple of times too, and can see how that can go along with BPD. We lack certain social skills, and can develop intense anxiety and fear because of that. But it's uneven. For example, I do really well with internet and email, but technophobia sets in if I have to use phones or fax machines. Also, my social anxiety disappears when I'm in a defined role doing something I feel competent at, such as working with my clients. But I'm a basketcase with peers or supervisors.

Wow thanks Rapunzel; I didn't know about the nonverbal signs thing, but that fits me quite well.
Like you I'm fine playing a role, but the BPD comes out when the mask has to come off... I'm trying not to gey too close to any more people because of that.