[chrise]

i was dx as borderline back 20 yrs ago, and after 10 yrs of therapy things were looking good. all of the poor personality traits were under control. now something set them off again. its come back slowly but i never saw it coming.i have started therapy again after a 10 years hiatus. why cant i remember anything that i had learned. i dont see things like i did before.most, if not all of the poor coping traits are back with a vengance. its almost like i never had treatment.its a long road. im not ready.i feel like im starting from day 1. im a mess. i feel im at the end of a path that has no light. everyday is painful. where to from here?

[Greg77733]

Hi Christie, I am 47 and I was diagnosed around forty. All along I knew something was wrong, but what? Any how I have stopped or my therapist went on to greener pastures. So the starting again thing I understand, but the yrs in between like you , no experancise. Most people that I have met around my age with mentall illness can't remeber ether. It must be the mentall illness it self. One of your skills is that box thing, put mellow cd in it, put picture that takes you tocalm- ville. Their are three other things that go in it, can,t remeber.L.O.L. Oh something for scent, it's all your senses rememeber. There are others but I liked the box. Hope it helps, Later

[cantstopcrying]

Originally Posted by chrise

i was dx as borderline back 20 yrs ago, and after 10 yrs of therapy things were looking good. all of the poor personality traits were under control. now something set them off again. its come back slowly but i never saw it coming.i have started therapy again after a 10 years hiatus. why cant i remember anything that i had learned. i dont see things like i did before.most, if not all of the poor coping traits are back with a vengance. its almost like i never had treatment.its a long road. im not ready.i feel like im starting from day 1. im a mess. i feel im at the end of a path that has no light. everyday is painful. where to from here?

((((((((((((((chrise))))))))))))))) That's a good thing that you are starting therapy again---I hope you do well with it. Don't worry about not remembering anything...it's ok to start from day 1. Oh, considering changing your wording and thinking from "poor personality traits" to "unhealthy coping skills" or "unhealthy thinking"--it's not your personality that is flawed. You are right, it is a long road, a very hilly and winding road--you don't have to walk it alone...there are several of us on that path. Some are further ahead, some are further behind, some are right where you are; either way you can reach forward for help, backward to give support or right next to you for someone to lean on. We'll walk it together, hills and all. And we will make it. Please reach out when you need to, pm me when you need to lean for a while.

[pegasus]

((((((( chrise ))))))))

Nothing wrong in having therapy again, infact good on you! Talking treatments have changed in ten years, you are back on the right road.

[Fuzzybear]

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[Beth1957]

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