It's Hitting Me Too Hard

Thomas was my Adoptve Brother who sexually abused me.

The job. I got a phonecall today saying that I have my induction for working in one of the best departments in the store.. Best paid job, more hours, more enjoyable and generally more fun. It's on the fish counter and I can't wait! Because I'm gonna love the regular customers and I know I'll do well.

I had another interview at a jewellery shop today, but I hated the manager and the pay, hours and how enjoyable it would be was awful.

So, I have a job!!!! YAY! It's full time and I have my induction on Saturday, Training and food safety levels one and two on Sunday, possible levels three and four too Things are looking up, especially after a considerably bad week.

The purging is wayyy off the scale. 24 times isn't enough anymore. It has gone up to 63 times and my minimum amount of times doing it is now 30 I'm seeing my dr about it because I know it's doing me no good and I know it's making me ill. Hence why I have tonsillitis again (or possible glandular fever).

But I'm still trying to cut down on it. Today I have had: a bite of banana, and while at Connor's parents' house, Some haddock and peas with a bit of potato. I haven't purged and I'm hoping I can keep it down, but I don't know. I do feel less ill now that I've eaten, which is good. But I feel sick because I'm so full and anxious about it being in my stomach.

But hey, things are improving a little! Even if Connor's Mum has noticed how fast the weight's been dropping off... And is worried that I'm going to lose more weight "when I don't need to"

Congrats on the job!!! What is the status of therapy these days?????

Status of therapy: Non existent. For now. In the new year I will definitely be going back again for some intense therapy... Eeeeek! But may be going back before then, it depends how my finances are then...

I guess I'll have to wait and see