sad and exhausted

flashbacks, no sleep, hypervigilence, scared to do anything because I'm always wrong. (IRL)
Just sad exhausted and scared

I didn't know the words to that song
where have all the flowers gone, were they ever really there?
so many things I don't understand, and still don't

Furry Paws, Maybe that is part of our healing...realizing that we may never understand...but still learn to accept and try to limp along the best we can, touch as many people as we can (in a positive way), and leave a better legacy than what was left for us...

I know I will never get my answers. They wouldn't give them while they were still in this world and not they have all passed on... Hard to swallow sometimes...but I know that I have never intentionally brought harm to anyone and somehow that makes it a little better.

Love to you my friend!!

Hi Again Fuzzy....
Sometimes when I get like this (and I do, especially when I am at home at night) but I will find something even something that doesnt require to much effort, but something that I enjoy doing and try to take my mind off of figuring everything out. I am always trying to figure this stuff out and I get frustrated because the answers are not there ... I have to find my own answers and be satisfied with them....
I love to write in my journal, I like to draw pics in my journal, and sometimes I just like to lie in my bed and think or not think just listen to some nice music.

Well thats all.... maybe something you like will help to take your mind off of the thinking .... if that makes sense