[googley]

I feel all screwed up inside. I feel like I'm in almost constant emotional pain even if it is a small amount. I feel like my attack has ruined my life. It has left me afraid of everything. It drains my energy. I hate dealing with this in T. It leaves me drained and feeling so bad after T. And it is bringing up so much pain and awful feelings. And I don't know where they are all coming from. I feel dirty and awful all the time now. I want it to all go away. To go back before we started talking about all this painful stuff. I just want to pack it all up and make it go away again.

Dealing with it in therapy is the process that works to get the trauma under control and with luck out of your psyche. It is so unfortunate that such a traumatic experience must be revisited to desensitize the ordeal you endured as a means to give you some cloture and peace.

[Pikku Myy]

Do not give up hope.... it took me almost a year and half... to gain control with my situation.... hugs