[ZoeysbabyKittyXX]

Title: Trying not to give up on the word love.

This is the whole story, from beginning to end.

How did you feel, before you met her?.
Depressed 9suicidal) but hiding it and showing it at the same time, wanting love but did not believe in it, unwanted, mad, angry, lonely, piss off, fed up, realizing that I am and was holding in a lot more than expected, needed someone,.
What happened?.
I did not have any friends or any one that I felt close to. So I decided to meet new people, and I did on gonegothic. I joined the website and a group that was for hanging out with other members. I passed by a member, photo and her posts I could not stop starring at her posts and profile.
I felt connected to her, but did not say any thing. Because I did not want to get attached, but I was already. So me and her started talking as friends/best friends, every thing was doing good.
How did you feel?
Wanted, loved, it took my depression away a lot but I still felt it, glad, safe, warm, like I finally have someone that I can talk to,.
Then a while after she added me on, youtube things started to change was was only talking once a week so…I believed that she found someone to replace me,. But she added me on myspace, and that when, it all started we was barely saying any thing to each other. And it did not matter how many and how many times I tried to make her see, what she was letting go of she still treated me the same way. And then I was gotten rid of,…, but I ask her why, she said it was a accident but I know that it was done on purpose, because it ask on myspace are you sure you want to delete this person as a friend. After it happened I left the website, but then came back..
To find her new profile saying, my nickname. With a video that she made a long timeago but I did not care, she posted on her status that core who she replaced me with broke up with her. It is her core fault that I was treated like that and hers to, I do not. See how she could have been depressed, treated me trash all at the same time.
How did it make you feel, when she did that o you before you came back?.
Shocked, surprised, mad, extremely hurt, suicidal depressed, humiliated, traumatize her showing me love was a lie, like I need to throw up,…feel like it now a little as I type this, I even started feeling dizzy at one point truthfully,.
I could not finish watching ginger snaps. Because it reminds me of when we first met. And, Intervention I can not watch that either without thinking back, watching my favorite genre of movie that is horror. Now is kind of hard, she came back she saids that she is sorry and that she had a problem, but it is hard to believe. But I forgive her, kind of we are together now. But I do not care to hear her say that she love me but she can if she wants. After I ask her some more questions, she said that she never hated me but again I will not believe that I wonder why she would post…it was this video that she made by it for only for those who are worthy for every body to see. I knew it was towards the video….maybe she thought that I would laugh or something but it was not the right time..now I do not care what I mean to her. We did use to laugh and joke a lot, we still kind of do but not as much because I am keeping this from her.

[ZoeysbabyKittyXX]

....How should I handle this?, any advice is helpful.

[Crew]

change the word and the meaning if you have to... call it velo

just a thought, Crew