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Last edited by Typo; Oct 18, 2011 at 06:15 PM. |
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(((Typo)))
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hey little bird. i didn't see your original post, but just wanted to let you know i miss seeing you around and in case things are tough right now...
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He said that we can email as MUCH as we want (100 times per day). Believe in this - it is challenging fears about being punished. It is okay to be seen. You are not a nuisance. "Too much" simply means exploration, not punishment/withdrawal. Trust in him. ![]() Not looking at him is about keeping aspects of self hidden/secret. We know that is not the healthy choice. Keep working on this - you will get there. ![]() Accept there are parts. Be kind and gentle with them. Working with parts and feelings is the key to happiness. We have been happy before when listened to them and accepted them and were open to feelings. Write in your journal - it is safe to do so. ![]() |
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I didn't see the original post. I wonder if it was about the holidays coming up in the states (Thanksgiving and Christmas)? At work everyone is talking about what they are going to do and how much fun it will be. I keep quiet because I will have to see my abuser and be triggered and struggle through several hard days of PTSD symptoms. Yuck.
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Thank y'all
I guess I felt exposed posting. I have been dealing with not letting paranoia control me latley. Christmas and Thanksgiving (which won't be an issue this year I will be spending it with bf's family) are huge triggers for me. Christmas more than anything. Some abuse happened during Christmas gatherings and my mom's side of the family (where abuser came from) are very toxic and triggering for the most part. As October grows to a close the more and more anxiety ridden I become. Also a part of me is frustrated I have to participate in a holiday that isn't even one I personally celebrate. I do it for my family (Christmas is a big deal to them). Once I get past my mom's side of the family I am okay it's just the dread, anxiety, and paranoia dealing with the build up of the event. |
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I feel sad when someone deletes their post. I have done that, too, though, sometimes. Holidays are coming up for me, too and I am not sure how they will go. Post if you are comfortable, okay? Billi
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oh hun, christmas stuff IS hard
![]() is there a chance you will see abuser? or is it more that being with that group of people triggers fears/memories? I also really understand your frustration. I used to feel forced into celebrating christmas when I didn't believe in it and actually hated it. It was incredibly hard and i had to be very internally strong, but i stopped celebrating it. told people i did not want gifts and refused them when they tried to push gifts on to me. told people i would only go to eg lunch for immediate family and wouldnt go to a large gathering. that kind of thing. it took many christmas's for my choices to be accepted by others. but has been a huge step forward in my growth. but i know that is scary and hard and may not be what you want. smaller things you could do may be to refuse to be somewhere that abuser is. just go to small gathering, not a huge one. just commit to going for a short period (eg brunch rather than full dinner). have your own way of leaving so you aren't dependent on waiting for others to want to leave. take a talisman that will help you (i had t's hanky, but it may be something that soothes or something that makes you feel strong). allow yourself to hide in bathroom or somewhere private if you need some space or need to take a little time to soothe/ground self. give yourself permission to call bf if things become very difficult. you can also give your own meaning to the day (eg make it a day to do something beautiful for self and do that thing before you go away to do the whole family thing. eg might be something like time in nature, put flowers in bedroom, give self time to write, read a book that talks to inner you, also other comforting things or soothing things). you can make it a special day that has nothing to do with christmas. you can get through this hun. just takes careful planning beforehand and a committment to helping self. be gentle with you - especially if your anxiety levels increase closer to the time ![]() ![]()
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He said that we can email as MUCH as we want (100 times per day). Believe in this - it is challenging fears about being punished. It is okay to be seen. You are not a nuisance. "Too much" simply means exploration, not punishment/withdrawal. Trust in him. ![]() Not looking at him is about keeping aspects of self hidden/secret. We know that is not the healthy choice. Keep working on this - you will get there. ![]() Accept there are parts. Be kind and gentle with them. Working with parts and feelings is the key to happiness. We have been happy before when listened to them and accepted them and were open to feelings. Write in your journal - it is safe to do so. ![]() |
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