[Ardmore]

I took it and it said I'm most likely to have PTSD, at first I thought it was glitchy but I read alittle about PTSD and I have a few questions.

It said that someone is likely to have this disorder when the person experiences a trumatic or shocking events in their life either its emotional, sexual, or physical.

To think back, I remember witnessing my mother having sex with her boyfriend who treated me and my brother like he was the real father but he was a major ****, I told my mother many times how I didn't like him, told her all the time he treat me terribly so to see that I think scarred me very deep.

I also remember waking up in the morning to yelling and swearing from my mom, she would yell at me and my brother for no reason, I don't even remeber what she was *****ing about but she would come into our rooms and wreck our rooms, flipping over the mattress, breaking glass, throwing our clothing everywhere until we left for school.

I remeber when I was in my early teens, when I woke up to my ***** of a sister having sex with the man she said herself he ruined the last 3-4 years of her life, I just laid there pretending to be a sleep while I just hope my niece wouldn't wake up to see it (we all slept in the same room), to see that made me hate her for as long as I live.

My brother would beat the **** out of me since I was 13 till I was 17, call me fatass, stupid ****, taking credit for making my life better when he made it a living hell, grabing my hair and smashing it on the ground, threating to hurt me seriously if I didn't do what he say.

So, what do you think?

[meadowsweet]

Hi ardmore, it sounds like you have had some tough times. But I think that a diagnosis of ptsd is quite specific and really needs to be made by a qualified doctor. Then hopefully you can get the right tratment for you if you feel it will help.

[Ardmore]

Thank you but I really don't feel like I need help, just trying to learn about myself.

[Penny T. StDuhnam]

Glad to hear you're not experiencing issues with all that you've been through. If you have healthy interpersonal relationships and co-workers, etc, it may not be a problem.

I told myself I didn't have a problem but looking back see the cycles now.

Best wishes!

[Ardmore]

Thank you

Oh my goodness I'm so sorry. You live with the worst people. I'm sorry with what you're going through.

[Ardmore]

Thank you for your concern, I don't live with them anymore thank the heavens

[Morgana]

We're really, really glad that you don't live with them anymore! They sound dreadful.

No one can diagnose you obviously, but I can see why you're looking back and examining post-traumatic stress in combination with your past. :3

[likewater]

Ardmore, glad you got out. You are right, it does sound like you have a lot of trauma in your past and definitely could use some
therapy. Im sorry you went tbrough such pain, and it sounds like you are still in pain. I wish you healig.