[Hamartia]

Hi all,
It has been 12 years since my rape. I was 14 when it happened and am still struggling with PTSD, depression and a whole plethora of psychological issues . I had a rough family life as well that has attributed to many of the things I am dealing with. I have a question that I haven't seemed to be able to figure out on my own and I am a bit embarrassed by it. After I have sex, I usually feel dirty and almost a disgusted feeling comes over me. I don't know why this is and can't seem to stop this from happening. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this and if they have found anything that has helped.
Thanks in advance-H

[likewater]

Yes, i experience this!!! (((Hamartia))) it is a terrible feeling. What helps in long run is therapy. Right when it happens hugging my dog or having bfriend hold me. Definitely putting clothes back on and gping for a walk , getting out of house and talking about it a later time. Emdr , eft and neurofeedback are therapies that help me. Safe hugs.

[Hamartia]

thanks. Yah my therapist wants me to try biofeedback to help some of my symptoms, it is kind of expensive though. Worth it I guess if it helps..

[likewater]

What helped me was neurofeedback like biofeedback but brainwave centered. It is usually expensive but at clinic where i go students do it so it's not.

It's super hard for me to write anything here because the pain for me is too deep. But I just wanted to squeek this out: I understand and send big hugs to you.